rebecca whyte
New Here
I have got emotional arrousal with memories since I was 16. I have had chronic child abuse because my father was a rageing alcholic, I have been getting memories off and on in my life. I did very well with one therapist and really dissociating with this new one. I have scarry thoughts all the time about my symtoms, I want to process these memories so i no longer have to deal with them anymore. But I am not feeling safe with my new therapist and feel really scared about all of this. I was in a bad relashionship and my bf was a severe opiate addict and he triggered all of this in me.
I have been floaded for over a year now. I want to do the work but want to feel safe doing it, I keep getting into these abusive relashionships because of my childhood and get revictumized. It is alot of hard work, I am just waiting for my system to settle down it gets a lil better over time, but your boady is constantly in the state of anxiety and that sucks. Having a hard time not dissociating is real hard. It is good to process because it get's rid of toxins in your body and can help with cancer and heart disease. You carry pain in evrey crack and crevis of tour body. I'm a lil person I'm not sure hoe my body can have all this anxiety.
I just wish I would stop the obsessive thinking and feeling like I am outside of my body. My brain has always wanted to process my material since a teen. I am just sick of going thru all of this all the time but I need to get rid of it it comes up on me if I'm not processing it. It is either process or be on medication for the rest of my life and staying in bad relashionships where I continue getting hurt...
I have been floaded for over a year now. I want to do the work but want to feel safe doing it, I keep getting into these abusive relashionships because of my childhood and get revictumized. It is alot of hard work, I am just waiting for my system to settle down it gets a lil better over time, but your boady is constantly in the state of anxiety and that sucks. Having a hard time not dissociating is real hard. It is good to process because it get's rid of toxins in your body and can help with cancer and heart disease. You carry pain in evrey crack and crevis of tour body. I'm a lil person I'm not sure hoe my body can have all this anxiety.
I just wish I would stop the obsessive thinking and feeling like I am outside of my body. My brain has always wanted to process my material since a teen. I am just sick of going thru all of this all the time but I need to get rid of it it comes up on me if I'm not processing it. It is either process or be on medication for the rest of my life and staying in bad relashionships where I continue getting hurt...
