WanderingSoul
Bronze Member
This neck pain is rather depressing by this point. I dont know how to afford to exist. Some days I try to be hopeful and watch success videos. But sometimes my pain is too much and I just need to lay down. It's just getting depressing wasting away unable to earn any money to pay bills for existing. I lost all my SSDI because I have not been able to find work in years. And even with all my medical evidence the judges still think I can earn something. I just feel burdened by a sick broken body and I see no paths to success in this condition. I worked myself broken. I seriously thought hard work would make me stronger. I worked for all the wrong companies that did not care about my health. Only that I could get a quick job done. I thought insurance came with the jobs. Working your way up from nothing can be very dangerous I suppose. My last job years ago left me with such PTSD I don't know what to make of anything. I get incredibly frustrated when people try to tell me pain is mind over matter. That is easy to say for some people who arent disabled. And they don't get it.
