Please help me

[Casey_03]

I have been following this thread but didn't comment sooner because I don't think I really have any advice or anything useful to add. But I hope this treatment option works for you, and know that we are all rooting for you. Chin up, and keep your eyes on your goal. You will get stronger, it'll just take time.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I agree with @TexCat, it really sounds like you are being proactive in your healing. That is a GREAT thing! Awesome work!

I hope this treatment center works out as well! it really sounds like they can give you a ton of resources, which is always good in my book. Fingers crossed!

 

[Deleted member 37085]

Good for you @eve!

 

[DharmaGirl]

I'm so relieved to hear that you want to get better. I've been so worried about you.

 

[LLMertens]

I live in the Washington DC area and struggled to find a program to suit. I wound up traveling to Chicago to an all women's residential treatment program called Timberline Knolls. It Was Hard, but it was very beneficial in stabilizing me and getting me rolling with some DBT skills.

Wishing you all the best

 

[talon]

I'm at the point where I know I need something more intensive. I was about to make another attemp...

Well you live in the US so it's different to NHS in UK. what i will say is that you need to see your GP and communicate the fact that you need increased support . If possible i suggest you write down what your needs are in the here and now that way you won't forget important points that you need to address. Otherwise when leaving you might become frustrated at not recalling important points that need addressing . Hope this help

 

[EveHarrington]

Well that lasted all of 3 days.

I'm in a nosedive once again.

I just hate it when people give me lip service to try and prevent me from hurting myself.

Dammit, I always find out the truth, always. But then it's so much worse.

I will reach out to the program on Monday. They should be able to help me.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

I am here now @EveHarrington want to talk as I so care what you're going through

 

[EmmaOwl]

I will reach out to the program on Monday. They should be able to help me.

Good! I looked over a couple of links and I was surprised to see that many programs only admit patients who already have a psychiatrist and a therapist "on the outside". Some nonsense about continuity of care, making sure that patients have care when they leave. Which has the effect leaving OUT an awful lot of people who are most in need of inpatient treatment. I'm sorry it's so difficult to find a decent program.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

I'm here @EveHarrington so wish I could make this easier for you. I know you're having a tough go now and please know that you will find help just keep reaching out. You can share here.

 

[EveHarrington]

I finally realized that I can't depend on anyone but myself. Depending on others and trusting others is what got me in this mess to begin with. It feels kind of liberating to know it's just me myself and I. Go figure.

(I don't mean here. I mean people I know in my life.)

 

[Deleted member 37085]

Hey @EveHarrington up to a certain point I understand you not believing or wanting to trust others and to only rely on yourself and honestly may I please be honest here eve that almost got me gone. I had to reach out and trust a power greater than myself (professionals) trauma specialists who pissed me off, who pushed all my buttons, and whom also helped me to this point I am at this moment talking with you eve.

I had to trust something greater than my own mind for my brain gave me messages of nothing but doom and seemed to want to take me out of here; oh eve so much trauma and no one to help me to learn that I had choices and decisions that had nothing to do with my past anymore and perps. For I am learning that my past now is...well post EMDR now my past and I am now having to try and learn how to live in the present. It's hard yet nothing like living in my past eve. Just me. My story. More about you beloved eve.