Please Somebody Help Me.. Do I Have Ptsd?

[Jann2]

I have no interests. I just feel really numb and I can't do much not even my homework. Surprised I'm not failing.

Am I right in believing this is ptsd?

 

[The Albatross]

Guilt is self inflicted pain. If you can do an honest assessment of the most troubling things it can be helpful but guilt, like fear... is hurting yourself. No need to do that. Find the lesson and move on.

 

[DMerish]

It could be PTSD, but like I said, nobody here is able to diagnose. It sounds like you might have major depressive disorder (MDD). I strongly suggest talking with a doctor and doing something to develop interests, starting small with something(s) that will provide quick results like cooking or taking care of a houseplant, and go/do different things. You'll still feel numb when you start out and that's okay. The thing is you'll begin having new and different impression of yourself (and the world) after you begin doing different things. Staying with the same thoughts/feelings becomes circular and that's were people usually get stuck. Does this make sense?

 

[The Albatross]

I don't know a thing about anime, but I concur with Megan that in life there will be adversity and pain at some point for everyone. Those who learn the skills and attitudes necessary to transverse it and keep going are most often all the better for it. I got mine early... and had multiple traumas besides familial abuse. But I can tell you that by dealing with it and cultivating an attitude that fosters personal growth instead of guilt/shame/panic or fear you can come out the other side.

 

[megan_bethea]

Here check this out it will put a smile on your face :) Those of us that have felt pain should strive for the light, and laughing is definitely the way to do it! ^_^

 

[The Albatross]

Jann there are various mental health diagnosis where the symptoms you've identified could apply... PTSD is one of them. A professional is necessary for diagnosis.

 

[wyrd_dragon]

Hey Jann -- regarding guilt feelings. I know it might be tough to process right now but, as a child (doesn't matter if your 18 now, you're still their child and you certainly were when you were 10 etc) you do NOT hold responsibility, whatever you may have 'done' for the actions of adults.

Adults who cause you to feel that you are responsible for abusive actions are abusive adults. You are/were the child. They are/were the adult/grownup. That means that, no matter what you may have 'done', they are the ones expected to and responsible for controlling their actions and responses.

No child 'deserves' an adult to resort to physical violence. In my opinion the adult would have to be in serious and I mean serious fear for their life (say, dealing with a much bigger, stronger and out of control teen) to be justified in using physical strength to defend themselves. Only to defend themselves. Not to punish or harm. Even then it's ifify. And that's just physical stuff.

No child, ever, ever, whatever the case 'deserves' emotional, sexual, or the many other kinds of abuse they can be subject to. There is nothing you could do, as a child, to a parent, that would mean you should feel guilt over what they have done to you. Seriously. Adults who tell you this are abusive adults who are unable to take responsibility for their actions.

The reason society treats minors as deserving of protection and unable to consent/make adult decisions is that you are not in a stage of development where you are fully in charge of or responsible for your actions and responses. That's part of growing up. You can't, when you are little, understand fully the complex reasons/motivations behind adult decisions and actions. Adults can and are expected to by society. They are the ones responsible for your situation, not you.

You, unfortunately, are responsible for how you manage from here and that's really hard. But, as The Albatross has been saying, with the right mentors/adults on your side and the right support you can make it.

I hope this helps.

 

[Jann2]

DeathRay, thanks. That helped.

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome to the forum Jann... I hope you will find some support and things to assist you here. :hug:

 

[Jann2]

Thanks a lot-albatross.

 

[Jann2]

Yea it does thanks drew

 

[anthony]

Please do not post the same thing in multiple locations. Threads merged here as a result.