Sexual Assault Police Officers Hurt Me- The Police Did A Cover Up

[Deleted member 34195]

@Dylan_Green - I want to echo a few things @Anarchy said.

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He also asked for my photograph before he started making sexual comments and questions- i sent him my photograph of me with my best friend-- i know it was stupid to do that online-- i learned the hard way...this man basically sexually preyed on me.... that is how it felt. he was working the grocery store stalking things-- he was asking me questions about if i lived around her and what i liked to do for fun and he said he likes helping people--i didn't pick up on the cues- i trusted him- then online-- he told me about bad things he did after i sent my picture and i showed him other pics i took at a local park-- he then procceeded to ask me sexual questions- he picked on me for for not being with someone (not dating)- he put me down and made disgusting comments.... he is sick person. i was worried about his daughters- he has two young daughters.... he is sick person. i found out from local grocery store that he longer works there.......

 

[Changing4Best]

@Dylan_Green You need to get your mind off of all this. Do like others have recommended. Do something(s) that make you happy. Listen to some music you like, or read a book or magazine or something unrelated to all this.

 

[Changing4Best]

`I've thought this whole thing over and I believe you are better off going to the Mental Hospital than the Jail. In Jail, you run the risk of being raped or even murdered by the police. In the Mental Hospital they will hopefully place you on some medicines that will calm you down and make you less upset. Once you are stable they will most likely release you, as long as it is after the date of your sentence being over. You will be safer in the Mental Hospital than in Jail. I have been in Jail before, once, and in Mental Hospitals many times. Given a choice between the 2, I would prefer the Mental Hospital any day! PLEASE TAKE THIS ADVICE. It could save your life.

 

[Deleted member 34195]

`I've thought this whole thing over and I believe you are better off going to the Mental Hospital t...

I got some bad news- I picked up bed bugs while in jail and brought them home.... I got bitten 6 times now and I picked up staph infection too- I have see my doc today. I also got bad news too --my local PD just charged me with two more serious misdemeanors-- now a total of 4 serious misdemeanors...... to make matters worse-- they booked me again at jail and photographed me and finger printed me -i am going to jail. you can't get out of jail- you can't just check yourself in psych hospital and avoid jail- they don't care. I am be spending a year or more in county jail. I have two court hearings now..... also the social workers are now backing the police- no one will stand up against our local PD- even though they are the ones who stated this cop groomed me- there is NO justice- I called the FBI and reported this- they said I have to contact the internal affairs of my local PD- i told the guy on telephone- I already did that and they did a cover up. A mental health screener called my house and she said she is trying to get me civilly committed and court order to take psych drugs against my consent-- I take PRN called adivan for my anxiety. There is NO justice. I even contacted the Local sexual violence shelter thing and i talked to advocate and she said she couldn't give me any legal advice-- i said to her, a cop sexually groomed me, but you can't help me?? you help other sexual violent victims, but cause a cop hurt me, you can't help me? this city and county is messed up... .totally messed up. I called the suicide prevention hotline and gave me a legal aid number. my public defender never called me back... i also have a foot fungus and a war on my toe that i all got from jail- i was only in there for three days..... i managed to pick up bed bugs- which came into my apartment-- it is nightmare times ten. i got staph infection on my back- there is boil on my spine and boil bumps popped up in different spots and then i also picked up foot fungus and wart on my toe.... it was so unsanitary in jail- that is where i am going back too. also, i have decided to protest in doing a hunger strike while in jail-- i contacted someone from local newspaper that when i get sentenced to jail, i am going to go on a hunger strike and protest against the injustices that happened to me and also against police brutality. all the people including the social workers and psychologist and mandatory reporters who let me down in the end-- they are corrupted-- they are-- they knew that i was being groomed- all they want to do is drug me to numb me and shut me up--i already told the county that i will not speak to them unless i have attorney present--they are doing a cover up just like the police- they are sick.

 

[Deleted member 34195]

`I've thought this whole thing over and I believe you are better off going to the Mental Hospital t...

When I say they charged me with two new serious misdemeanors which now equals 4- I didn't break any new crimes-- i was told in jail that i only had two misdemeanor charges-but i got papers in the mail stating there is 4 charges against me-- i contacted the jail and asked me how it was possible there are 4 charges when i was told there was only two and she didn't have an answer--but she said i have four serious misdemeanor charges against me-- i figured it out-- the police are stating i violated their HRO three times. 1. they charged me with serious misdemeanor for reporting a suspicious person who I thought was a sex offender-- because I reported this man as suspicious person to the police being a concerned citizen and even my oldest sister told me to report him to the police- they are punishing me by charging me with a serious misdemeanor charge in violating their HRO by reporting a suspicious person- yet their cop called my house and talked to me- technically he violated his own HRO- i never asked for a cop to call me- i reported it to the 911 dispatcher- an officer called my house-- my friend thinks the local police are vicious-- it is disgusting- talk about a set up-- i should have never answered the phone... i was totally set up.... it is sick..... i believe that charge should be dropped. the second misdemeanor is because i publicly outed what the police did to me online on FB- i reviewed the local pd and told the public the truth about this corrupted cop and about being groomed--they threw a serious misdemeanor charge against for that- the third violation was cause I contacted one of the commanders and told him on the phone that he killed me and raped my soul- i told him that i used to look up to him like father and i trusted him with all my heart that when I reported one of of his own for grooming me, i thought he would do a police report on that cop- instead he did cover up, brought my rape up and did victim blaming and lied about me on police reports- i told him that he killed my spirit and raped my soul and that i would never forgive him---he put a serious misdemeanor charge against me for stating that-- he is puke-- the final fourth serious misdemeanor charge was misusing 911 by stating it was non-emergency and that i needed to talk to official about why i received some scare tactic letter in the mail stating i was going to jail for 90 days and I have never asked the 911 dispatcher to have cops come to my apartment- i refused to talk to them and let them in- they punished me and charged me with serious misdemeanor for misusing 911- i never asked to have a cop come here-- i even stated it was non-emergency-- the police have more power than i do- calling FBI was pointless. I gave them my first and last name, I told them what my local PD did a cover up of a cop who did grooming and that they did cover up, they did scare tactics, they did retaliation and that I am going to be punished up to a year or more in county jail for speaking up about the injustices that happened to me. there is no justice. my helper and therapist said that cop is in the wrong-- they can't help me...no one has helped me through this ordeal. i am on my own. i am bringing an email that i found saved on my computer of a conversasion of that cop that groomed and I- it specificially about keeping him a secret-- it talks about that and he thanks me for keeping him a secret from his boss and co-workers, etc-- i promised to him that i wouldn't tell a soul- that i wouldn't tell anyone about him coming to my apartment, phone calls, emails, fb talk, etc- i broke my silence- he denied everything..... he said he never emailed me-i have proof -- i kept on email- out of many emails..... i am going to give that to the judge and also made a copy of our fb conversasion- he lied and said he never talked to me one facebook- he said in the conversasion that he was going to unfriend me on facebook cause police professional reasons- he knew he was breaking police laws-- he actually deleted his fb after that and told me to delete mine--- he said he was protecting me- no, he was protecting himself..... he lied to his police department, he lied to superiors, to his wife, etc. he lied-- i am giving that transcript to the judge and the email as well and to show proof that cop and I had unprofessional relationship- he is authority figure and I am the vulnerable adult- we talked about things that have nothing to do with police matters-- i also wanted to state something too- my therapist believes I am autistic- I am getting tested for that as well- she says I dont pick up on social cues and she said the cop was manipulating and taking advantage of me and grooming me, but i didn't see it until a social worker said something to me about it . it makes me sick...... that these mental health professionals cannot help me in fighting my case against the police department.... after everything, once this is over with, i am moving out of this city and out of this county-- i will never forgive them. i never trust a police officer, a social worker and honestly i have serious trust issues in authority figures because I told the truth about what this cop did to me- everyone did a cover up and protected this cop and not me..... i never forgive them. there is no justice. i am not delusional . i have hardcore evidence on my computer in which i am printing and handing to the judge when i go to court this week.

 

[Deleted member 34195]

I know this doesn't mean much, but you are not alone in what you have experienced My father in law is...

I called the FBI last night and the man on phone said what that cop did to me is not considered a federal crime. I told the FBI guy that I was sexually groomed and that I reported it to my local PD and they did cover up, they did scare tactics, they did retaliation and they did everything in their power to shut me up- the FBI guy said that he can't help me-- that I need to report it again to the internal affairs of my local PD- are you kidding me?? I told them my local PD did cover up. I have no voice in this matter anymore. I am going to jail and for a long time as this cop is still working on the force and walking free....there is No justice. Your father in law is smart man- I wish I had known all of this sooner.

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm so sorry, @Dylan_Green. I wish I could do something, anything, to help you. All I can recommend is to bring coloring books and coloired pencils with you. Maybe they will let you use these to calm yourself. I hope they will. Crochetting is another calming thing, if they don't allow the coloring books. Buy some yarn and a crochetting hook and a book about how to crochet, if you don't know how to do it. It is very calming. I will be praying for you, I hope that is OK.

 

[joeylittle]

@Dylan_Green - as far as I'm aware: grooming is a term for a set of behaviors. It's not a word for a crime.

I've read your posts carefully. You are spiraling, and focusing very hard on casting blame.

My advice would be to stop that cycle, if you can. Most of your actions are things that you are going to need to take responsibility for. You broke a restraining order and made improper use of 911. You reported a person falsely. It doesn't matter that your sister told you to; you are the one who did it.

You are claiming that the officer 'killed you' and 'raped your soul'. That is what it feels like, but it's not what actually occurred.

What did occur is possibly some inappropriate behavior.

If you are not mentally competent to face these charges - then you need to get help with that.

Will your sister arrange an appointment with your public defender and go with you, to be your advocate?

In my opinion, psychiatric care would be very beneficial to you right now.

I'm sure this post will be upsetting. I'm not writing it to upset you - I'm hoping that something in here will click for you, or that you can show this to someone you trust, and they can help you.

Perhaps you can show these threads to your sister, or to your psychiatrist?

 

[Deleted member 34195]

@Dylan_Green - as far as I'm aware: grooming is a term for a set of behaviors. I...

I did NOT falsely report! Shame on you!! I was groomed!!! Professionals even said so..................... stop with your victim blaming. I am telling you the truth. I did not make a false report. It is against the law to groom a vulnerable adult. YOU are cop apologist. You are. It is considered sexual misconduct. As for the suspicious person= that was not false report. I take consequence for the HRO- I asked the PD to report a cop who groomed me- even the FBI stated to report to internal affairs. If you want to continue being a cop apologist- I cannot believe that you are a head person on this forum- you did victim blaming...were you there when the cop was doing what he was doing? NO. Shame on you.

 

[joeylittle]

@Dylan_Green - the false report I'm referring to is of the man in the supermarket, not the police officer.

I still cannot find where the grooming of an adult is a crime of sexual misconduct; but if 'vulnerable adult' is your legal status, then that might make things different.

It's not in your best interests to spin things out of perspective. If the cop did what you say he did, it was certainly wrong, and there should be consequences.

But there's a system. And as frustrating and broken as it is, it's the only way to really move forward.

Can you ask your sister to set up an appointment with you, her, and your public defender?

 

[Deleted member 34195]

@Dylan_Green - as far as I'm aware: grooming is a term for a set of behaviors. I...

Nope to your advice--- this has nothing to do with psychiatry nonsense.... I am sick of people making me think I am delusional because I was hurt by a cop-- if I had been groomed by any other citizen in this country-it is considered illegal by law-- they are authority over me- when a male social worker even stated that the cop was doing is illegal- he is now retired--- a forensic psychologist stated it is called grooming- she said the police are above the law-- my new therapist stated the same-- they said he is in the wrong-- I am not going to apologize to these corrupted fools- it is nice to see the person who's father in law is cop turn against me too-- when you were the one told me to report it to the FBI- they said to report it through internal affairs- I do not understand how you can even state that made false police report on that guy............that suspicious person- that was an honest police report. This forum is disgusting---- to have people who are cop apologists doing victim blaming and saying I am delusional and it never happened- keep drinking the koolaid and keep your blinders on...... you and I know the police force is corrupted here in the U.S. I researched that the second hugest complaint filed is sexual misconduct among police officers-- police get away with raping, molesting, grooming, sexual assault, sexual abuse, etc. To say this is psychiatric issue is BS. I have psychiatrist and he knows all the details of this-- he was the one who told me to go up the ladder and charge this cop in the court of law- he told me he would defend me in the court of law and if anyone tried to touch as in court order or civilly commit me- he will defend me. You can twist things and do victim blaming- you were not there.

 

[Deleted member 34195]

Grooming is a crime. There is study about sexual misconduct among police officers and grooming is listed as one. IF you look at child sexual abuse- grooming is a crime. They grooming you to have sex with you and do sexual things..... that is the truth. It is crime. I am done with this conversasion. I am going to court and take responsibility for breaking their HRO--I am activist and refuse to silence myself because of what happened to me. The cop is still working on the force- he will continue preying on the most vulnerable. Yes,he did kill my spirit and rape my soul- for you state that he didn't-- that is not your right to state that-- I have a right to feel that way.............I trusted that him. He betrayed my trust. I want to clarify something too-- I was just told that they believe I am on the autism spectrum- I don't pick up on cues and so forth-- I was told that if someone who can pick up on cues- would have aknowledge that officer was doing- I didn't see it-- I don't pick up on social cues..... I kept it secret and promised him to not tell a soul cause he said he was protecting me- as I found out- he wasn't. Even though I told him when I was in my pjs that I was vulnerable, he laughed at that..... if he wasn't breaking the law, ask yourself this- why did he not log any of his visits at my apartment?? people saw him coming up here.... why did he delete his facebook and all his emails to me? If he is innocent and has nothing to hide- why was he hiding all of it from his superiors and co-workers? When I go to court, I bringing the FB transcript-- he even admitted he broke police laws- he said he had to unfriend me cause of professional reasons- then he deleted his account exactly less than 10 hours later and then told me to delete mine--- he was doing cover up- i copied the whole transcript. He told me to delete all my emails- he said I need to protect him and that if I didn't he would no longer be my mentor or friend... he knew about all the past abuse --i told him everything......I kept one of the emails- in the email it specifically hardcore evidence that something extremely unprofessional has occurred between us. I stated in that email to promise to keep him and I a secret and that I won't tell a soul about us, about the emails, the phone calls or in person contacts. He replies and thanks me. For him to say he never emailed me, never talked to me on fb, in person, etc. He claimed that i googled him- that is all BS and lies-- he even discusses about his tough summer and his relationship with me in that email-- he left his wife for his co-worker.... the cops stated that i googled that- NO I didn't. It is all in that email. that is hardcore evidence- he used his police email to through the county-- it has his first and last name, his badge number and cell phone police number. I am printing it and bringing it to court. I will be punished by the court of law for breaking their HRO- I also broke it to publicly out it when I reviewed them for the crimes that happened to me and warn the public about this cop that is still working on the force-- I took risk to do that- that equals huge charges- that is OK- I am not a coward-- the police put that HRO against me because I asked them to file a report on one of their own who broke the law- they refused and I threatened to charge them in court of law- they did everything in their power to shut me up- I already reported with this evidence to the local news-- I emailed all of it-- I even told the local newspaper when I go to jail that I am going on hunger strike and protesting against what that officer did to me and also speaking up against police brutality when it comes to sexual misconduct.