Poverty As A Consequence Of Ptsd

[ms spock]

I think Tavern, it is one of those circumstances, of whatever gets you through. There are many, many, different ways of seeing all that stuff, in our own way and in our own contexts, we know our own nuances of where trauma occurred and what is or was a component in our own particular circumstances. I can only speak my own truth and understanding of it today, which, of course may develop and change in to another insight tomorrow.

One thing I loved about B5 was the journey of G'Kar from wounded, abused child archetype to someone with an completely different way of being in the world. He was an amazing actor. That was magnificent scriptwriting. Did you know that JMS always was onset when Londo and G'Kar were in a scene together?

I know that for me, that living without justice has been hard. Yet I have seen some women get justice and that is not for the faint of heart either.

I haven't been well lately, so excuse my jaundinced view. It does seem to me that the psychopaths and sociopaths are taking over the world. There are many immoral and unconscionable things happening across the planet in terms of corporations and companies in regards to people, places, animals and plants. No matter how hard the battles I have fought and been part of have been, it seems we lose alot more than we win. And we don't even get to the battleground for most of them. So I see it differently from you, though I respect your point of view.

 

[Taven Carlsen]

Did you know that JMS always was onset when Londo and G'Kar were in a scene together?

Interesting.

 

[Taven Carlsen]

By the way, I suggest making your own bread. (I have to anyway for dietary reasons.) But it's also dramatically cheaper and you will like it better.

 

[AzureMind]

I think I may be able to help brokenbone; you need to cut them out of your life; willfully banish them from your thought processes, and try to resume your life; if you wish to, hear my story, and towards the end I think it should be a bit clearer for you.

My father was abusive to me for as long as I can remember, and there were PLENTY of times where he left us with NO money, returned to and from jail for most of my life, and my mother at times had to make due, and find ways to stretch her money so we could eat some nights...there were times the bills were pilling up so high that our lights, or gas, or heat, or air conditioning during the summer was cut off, but we did eat, even if it wasn't steak, or fillet minon; and my dad did cocaine right in front of us, in the dark, and was completely oblivious to our plight.

He was abusive, and I at 17 years old went down to the police station and asked for what I could do about a parent who had a violent drug addiction; they gave me direction about getting a PFA against my father, and I FORCED/PESUADED my mother to get it by saying "if you don't, I leave, and I will NEVER speak with you again" I felt horrible for saying that because I knew a part of her loved him, but I HAD to think about making our lives and our home WHOLE again for the family, and not just the one sick person. I HAD to take the responsibility that BOTH my parents could not. I lost my childhood, but I had to do this, and I refuse to let them have the rest of my life...it's MINE, and I won't give it to them.

At this moment, my father is sober, but drinks and I know that drinking is his trigger to use harder drugs again; I've begun to make steps to get away from both my mother AND my father, and get my own place and get away. I may struggle for a while, but until I get truly comfortable financially, my SANITY will have to do, and for that, I'm grateful.

This applies to you; by keeping yourself focused on getting even with you abusers, they pervent you from living your life, and doing what you must do for yourself to improve your situation...they OWN your sanity; you give an abuser power when they keep your sanity. You say your bitter, and angry, and I hear you 100%...but as long as you focus on them, they win...don't let them do it! They couldn't beat you then, so why should they beat you now? :)

Also, do you have state-available assistance? Such as Food Stamps of some kind? I don't know if anyone said this before me, but in most cases you are eligible, and what's the harm in applying for those benefits? You may qualify for health insurance as well through the state in addition...I would investigate by first contacting your state unemployment office, and have them refer you to any outside resources for aid....there's help out there, you just have to be willing to live your life for you until you've realized the abusers lost the minute they lost you! :)

 

[AzureMind]

I'm not saying this as a means of short changing your emotions BB, what you went through was real, and it was your life, but I'm telling you that as long as your making it until you can do even better, then it's ok!

Material gains aren't everything in life; having your sanity is, and I would be glad that I didn't have to trade my sanity for monetary gains. I know people on both sides of my family, but the story behind how they got that money isn't so great.

My aunt took a husband who attempted to molest my older cousin, and my older cousin told her sisters that if he puts his hands on you in a strange way, then you tell someone, and wrap a bat around his head!

Sadly, when this was brought to my aunt's attention, she did nothing, but hold onto the J*****S because he has money and bought her a house, she couldn't otherwise pay for by herself, and my father thinks he's the best thing since sliced bread, but I guess it takes a J*****S to know a J*****S :rolleyes: :laugh:

That's how I see it anyway. ;)