Pregnancy, Medical Professionals And Ptsd

[HëllaBubz]

Now 8 weeks and 2 days along.

Will be seeing the Hospital next for the next appointment, but it will be with a Ob/Gyn because of the whole stirrups thing.....cannot hack those, they make me shake all over.

Starting to look at things to do for my engagement party.....it's not going to be small, so I'll need to figure well in advance how to handle it.

The exhaustion is still a big elephant in the room, so I'm giving into it whenever I can, although ate something on the weekend that my stomach took 4 hours to decide if it liked it or not......and then rejected it......forcefully.

That made me sleep from 8pm to 9am, and I was still exhausted after that.

Bleh.

Next appointment shouldn't be too bad, but I'm also bracing myself to drop kick the Gyno down the hall if he/she starts giving me shit over my needs.

I won't ever consider apologizing for my needs, they are legitimate and reasonable; anyone that decides to give me crap over it is going to be in for a nasty, all teeth BITE! :D

 

[HëllaBubz]

Slept another 4 hours this afternoon....Must have really needed it because it's only 3 hours later and I'm ready to go back to bed!

The psych is in 2 days, and I'm looking forward to that, I actually enjoy my sessions with him, I find them productive, even if they are a little draining.

I always leave with a smile, and feel like I have managed to accomplish something, even if it's a little thing.

 

[Whitneys story]

Hela, It has been many years since I have been through this. You mention you can deal with the pain expected. That the added extra would be the problem.

Both deliveries I was so tuned to my body and baby, and had read up on the actual process of delivery. I knew most of what to expect. Now they have classes which are excellent.

My first was planned epidural, the Dr refused to get off the golf course, ended up to late to administer. The second was planned natural as the first went so well.

As you say you are aware there will be some pain. Generally for the most part it is like the worst case of constipation one could imagine. But not a solid constant pain.

Learning the breathing techniques is a big plus. You control the situation. Your partner learns with you for grounding and focus.

Review what you can about epidural. Some women turn into monsters during delivery. With or without PTSD, our systems throw hormonal imbalance. Self-Hypnosis is also an excellent way to go. You have plenty of time to decide what will work for you and your body. When you see the little bubz, everything else fades away. :) Whitney

 

[HëllaBubz]

As you say you are aware there will be some pain.

The worst pain I've ever dealt with was a rotator cuff tear, and a kidney infection...... I think I'll be able to get through, it's just surviving up til then!

 

[Whitneys story]

Oh my this will be a breeze! And I would not lie to you even though I see Bubzilla staring at me.

PS. Yes it is good to be in a hospital. They are prepared for quick action if needed. I hear they even have floating tubs for relaxing! What a treat that would be. More Hugs, Whitney

 

[HëllaBubz]

I hear they even have floating tubs for relaxing! What a treat that would be.

Yes, that's why I chose the hospital that I'm booked into, because they have those and they promote active birthing.

 

[HëllaBubz]

Oh my this will be a breeze!

Oh and teeth grinding too, I grind my teeth to the point of the front incisors wobbling and abcesses forming in my gum, and dealing with a molar that cracked clear through.

I should be ok me thinks!

 

[Bilby]

Wowsers Bubz, you've got some awesome news going on! Congratulations :)

I can't speak from a PTSD point of view, but I just wanted to say that I'm really glad that you have found yourself a good GP and I hope everything goes well with the hospital and the OB.

I'm wondering.... if you're worried about pain (on top of the normal pain you're experiencing - I think I know what you're getting at here) then is it worth considering an elective caesarean? It's pretty hard to say what will happen, but in the birth of my first (long labor, emergency caesarean), I had to have an epidural during labor. Honestly, it was nothing. It was quite quick, and I really can't say it hurt! You're very consumed with what is happening within your own body at that point in time and I guess I was already in a truckload of pain so I couldn't have given a rats jaxie about the epidural!

My next two babies were planned caesreans (mind you, I went into labor both times! Tricky babies!)

Anyway, good luck matey :)

B x

 

[HëllaBubz]

It's a Bilby! So glad to hear from you!

then is it worth considering an elective caesarean?

Have thought about that, I guess I'll have to see how I go.

At this stage (as a VERY naive newbie) I'm more thinking that I've gotten through all the other crap, I'll be able to survive this too.

I'm nowhere near as fit as my mum was when she had me, but I'll be ok, if I can survive months of agonizing teeth pain, lack of sleep and anxiety, I'm sure childbirth won't hold a candle to our PTSD.

I am getting support from Community Health, and that combined with the support from my T (who I see tonight yaay!), I should get through this!

I really appreciate your support Bilby, it does help.
I guess you'll just have to come down n meet bubs when he/she is born!

 

[Bilby]

At this stage (as a VERY naive newbie) I'm more thinking that I've gotten through all the other crap, I'll be able to survive this too.

You're a tough nut, and a good egg, Bubz :) I'm sure you will be able to survive too :)

So... cravings? Morning/all day sickness? Tiredness? Any of those old chestnuts coming home to roost? :P

I'm so happy for you Bubz, this is wonderful news! Enjoy. And feel free to hit me up any time if you would like to have a chat, ok?

B x

 

[HëllaBubz]

Thanks Bilby!

So far....

Cravings: Not really, occasionally the body will ask for something, and if it's something I can eat, I will.
I didn't really listen to the last 'ask' and instead gave my body something different (mushroom n cream spaghetti instead of pasata and spaghetti), and spent all today regretting it, just feeling clogged.

Morning Sickness: Somewhat, I wake feeling a little nauseous, and I know if I don't feed myself it will get worse. Certain things make it worse, like cereal and milk instead of cereal and juice, or polenta instead of toast and banana.

I'm needing fresh fruit and veg, and for some strange reason milkshakes or yoghurt seem to settle my stomach, not sure why. Peppermint tea is pretty good for settling my stomach, although I've discovered it must be sweet enough and have enough 'bite' or it won't work.

Tiredness: OMFG, I'm ruined, wrecked, dragging my knuckles, I just can't get enough sleep, and then it sets off my anxiety, and then I can't sleep, and then it sets off my anxiety and then I can't...........*sigh* It has, however, put a damper on my nightmares, and my sleep quality has improved, but after several years of sleeping like craphouse, well the sleep debt is insurmountable, probably the reason I don't last more than 2 hours before feeling the exhaustion come back.

I'm so happy for you Bubz, this is wonderful news!

It's a shame you had to find out on this thread, I first posted on the "I've been kidnapped........" thread, but yes, I'm still adjusting but everyone seems happy about the whole pregnancy thing.
There should be ultrasound pics on there too.

I just hope I can be a half decent mother, with how wrecked I'm feeling right now, not much is a consolation.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

How is it going Bubz? :)