Processing childhood neglect

[Tinyflame]

I do think it feels that way, which however is why I don't have anger about it unless self-directed. It flows from there I wasn't worth it. I used to not understand (in words) why I felt that way, but it wasn't a trigger to trauma (except speaking up leading to silence), it was a trigger to childhood. So as an adult I get angry only at myself when left floundering for thinking, I know better (about myself), why would I think it could be different? of no worth then, why now.

 

[Deanna]

My real mother hated me from a really young age. She beat the crap out of us/scream at us ( me and my brother) I can't get close. SHe moved not far from me ( I heard) But I can't do anything.. When she dies I'll carry out her plans as what I did for my dad but... that's all the attatchment I have. I'm not afraid of my therapist finding out why my mom didn't like me. I don't care