Sufferer Ptsd, Abuse, Rape, Anxiety, Depression...

[CaitMiller]

Hello all! My name is Cait, I joined this page about a week ago, but forgot to do my introduction.

I was abused as a child (physically & sexually) by a family member everyday for about 5 years then was abused emotionally & mentally by my Mother. I have been raped twice, by a boyfriend then a friend. I am now married- usually unhappily- and the flashbacks & PTSD have been worse than ever. I have LOTS of health problems due to my upbringing.

I study Psychology & soon will be going to school for Neurology, due to my passion to help myself and others (who have suffered from trauma) heal their brains/their bodies & not have a physical/mental reminder of their dreaded past.

I am here to support others should they need it, I love helping those in need. But I definitely have times when I need to feel heard, since many family & "friends" fled when I came out about my abuse.
I thank you for your time & I hope you have a blessed day.

 

[Ronin]

Sorry you are here, but glad you came in :)

Welcome, Cait.

Successful efforts with your healing & studies alike.

 

[angrypanda]

Welcome! Lots of us have been in your shoes and can identity with your struggles, it's a great place to be heard and to share what you know. :)

 

[Seasounds]

@CaitMiller, Welcome! For all that you've been through and are going through, i'm glad you are part of our community. And I hope you enjoy giving and receiving support in this forum, like I do. :)

 

[claire east]

Hello all! My name is Cait, I joined this page about a week ago, but forgot to do my introduction....

I too suffered rape and abuse at the age of 11 for 3 years and It was the hardest thing to deal with as five years ago I developed ptsd and I'm still fighting it

 

[Notsowild]

I too am a survivor of childhood sexual and physical abuse. I now have CPTSD due to another trauma. It's tough, I feel so different than the rest of the world.

Also I commend you on your studies. I have a hard time working a full time job.

Welcome to the forum.

 

[CaitMiller]

Thank you all for your support and input, I REALLY truly appreciate it.

@claire east AND @Notsowild I'm SO sorry to hear that. If you want to message me you are free to do so at any time. I could give you my number but I live in the US, so if you do to then I can send it to you! :D I JUST started going to counseling for my sexual abuse & it has been SO much harder than counseling for my physical abuse- crazy. So I wish you luck with that. Have you heard of "The Courage to Heal"? They have one for physical & one for sexual abuse. Very hard to finish, but GREAT & helpful reads.

And I know exactly what you mean. I have had major depression the past few days/weeks because I also feel very different. People treat you different when they know what you've been through, they isolate you. It seems like I feel things more deeply than most people. I don't know how to explain it. Is that kind of what you mean by "different"?

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :)

 

[intothelight]

@CaitMiller Welcome to the forum! :)

The best part of this forum (and also the saddest) is the members here really do understand and can relate to the challenges. I hope you find the support here beneficial to your healing.

 

[RavenGirl]

@CaitMiller , welcome to the forums. I too was abused, from age 12 -17 or so until I found the courage to tell my abuser if he ever tried to touch me again I'd kill him! He abused me sexually, verbally, psychologically, and sometimes physically. I started therapy June of last year (35 years after the Abuse started) and am now doing quite well.

Awesome job on your advanced schooling, I'm glad you have decided to help others. I hope you find this place as helpful as I have. Welcome again, Raven

 

[CaitMiller]

@intothelight & @EveHarrington Thank you so much!

And @RavenGirl hello again! I'm so sorry to hear you had to endure that. I hope your therapy has been helping! :)
And as it has been said, so sad to know others have been through these traumas, but it's nice to have people here for me (and others).

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug: