Other Ptsd and panic disorder

[BpinkJ]

So my T told me today that she thinks I have both PTSD and Panic Disorder. I have never been told I have panic disorder but over the years got mood disorder, PTSD, chronic PTSD, ADD, anxiety and maybe a slight bi-polar. I think so many symptoms cross over that they have no clue what I am fully but diagnose on the symptoms I am having. We haven't started EMDR yet. She wants me to talk more on here and find a way to cope at home before we start. She also said she received my papers from filing for SSDI. I wasn't sure about filing because I do want to go back to work...so I ask her does she think I should go through with the filing and she said YES. I don't know if this was a relief or made me feel worse that an actual professional thinks I need disability. She also couldn't get me in again for a late appointment until the end of the month, but flat out told me that I can't go that long and made me an appointment again next week and the week after. Looks like I will now be going weekly. I wonder what I said today that made her realize that I am bat shit crazy...... at least I already now I am deep down...but to see the look on some one else's face really makes it set in.

 

[Keen]

I don't know if this was a relief or made me feel worse that an actual professional thinks I need disability

I can relate with this feeling. Its a relief to know that someone recognizes just how much you are struggling and just how disabling your condition is, but at the same time it can make you feel "broken" and other ways like that when they recognize that.

I think so many symptoms cross over that they have no clue what I am fully but diagnose on the symptoms I am having

This is so true, and I can understand why clinicians and therapists struggle to find and stick with one diagnosis because the symptoms of so many mental health problems overlap.

 

[BpinkJ]

This is a new T and she asked what I have been told over the years. I was honest. There is bi-polar on my dad's side of the family, anxiety and depression on my mom's side. She said she diagnosed PTSD and possible panic disorder but she isn't sure yet if the panic disorder is part of the PTSD. We didn't start EMDR today. She said there is so much that she is wondering where we should start. I guess I'll see next week. She asked a lot of questions that I didn't know how to answer or never thought about myself. Ex. When was the last time you didn't feel in control? I had to ask in what way do you mean because everything is my way or the highway because I feel safe that way. And I know there were others but I can't think of them now. It seems when I get worked up and emotional when I think about it later there are gaps in my memory. Is that normal?