Ptsd Dares

[Lady of Longbourn]

Smile at work today.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I always had bad BO and my hair was always in knots.

I wish I had more time to reply more to this...but I went though something like you did. When I was young, I wasn't taken care of very well, this changed based on my mother but a lot of times I was dirty, my clothes were dirty and my hair was awful. I still know the way it would smell.

Even now I am very very touchy about smells, and people smelling me. Very very self-aware. When men come on to me...its confusing. I don't see what they see.

I have to run to work, but I kinda of know how you feel.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

oopps. I hit reply...sorry.

 

[KP the nut]

I dare myself to get back into going to aqua aerobics

Damn, just remembered I'm at the dentist on Wed, more cutting and stitching, Maybe aqua aerobics next week not this

 

[Heather]

I dare myself to look forward to a future and to be happy!

Me too Marie. I double dare myself. Since I don't really believe it's ever going to happen.

 

[Heather]

I dare myself to continue to be ASSERTIVE no matter how scary it feels. And boy does it feel SCARY, way SCARY.

 

[KP the nut]

I dare myself to get through next week. 5 nights and 6 days on my own here just the dogs for company and no T either.

 

[livergirl70]

Vee

Omd I couldn't believe it when I read your post that is so like me.

I can't stay asleep, I kinda cat nap. It's like I subconsciously program myself to wake up so that I do so before the dream stage of sleep so that I won't have to contend with the bad dreams.

The crowded places and fight mode - I kinda feel like if I'm ready to attack I can't get hurt. I'm like so on edge when I'm in crowded places it's like everyone is my enemy and I'm pumped ready to punch anyone who comes too close to me.

Spooky.

My dare to myself is to go to the pub on my birthday at the end of the month but the closer it's getting I know I'm gonna bottle it.

 

[Marie E.]

I dare myself to be more nice to myself!

 

[Grace11]

I dare myself to eliminate second guessing everything I say for the next ... day.

 

[KP the nut]

I dare myself to cut down on alcohol and chocolate.
I dare myself to take control and to continue driving.
I dare myself to get back into going to aqua aerobics

As Meatloaf sang 'Two out of three ain't bad' :p

The past few Thursdays have had other stuff arranged so no aqua.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Daring myself to do something I should have done a long time ago...

Go to India!

I have a very good friend there, who seems to have known for a long time that I really need a vacation. What is stopping me, really? Even my T has asked why don't I go back backing around the world like others my age.Nothing is really holding me back but my own fear. And maybe possibility's...?

I think I will go...in the next year. Work my ass off to pay for everything and save up enough money. And just finally do SOMETHING just for me! My own! I am close to tears just saying all this... I have thought about this for years, always something else in my way,or someone else stopping me.