Ptsd Dares

[intothelight]

I took a road trip with my daughter and didn't have a huge amount of trouble managing that.

So I need to work on getting around closer to home. That is where I alway feel like "He" is. But I know he is in jail, so it is time to keep confronting those fears. Mailbox mission has been accomplished. Now try to walk in parts of the neighborhood.

 

[BrazenBull]

At one of the jobs I had , a co-worker spent a majority of her time thinking of ways to startle me. She thought it was hilarious to watch me jump and scream.

:s My classmate always does that to me too, only he wouldn't think of ways to startle me i get easily startled when people just tap at my arm or hug me, and then i have a hard time relaxing, I dont hate him though he is friendly most of the time,helping me make friends and such, but it does kinda get tiring

 

[intothelight]

3 days since I've gotten the dam mail out of the box. Dare that for today.

OK, I fell out of my chair when read this one. I am glad I am not the only person who is afraid of the mail!

Anni, that was my goal a little while ago.

 

[anni]

Well, you'd have loved yesterday. I decided to GET it again after another 3 days of avoidance. I took my son to make sure I didn't chicken out, since of course he has no clue I'm silly about this. Out where we live, if a box doesn't fit, the mail delivery lady has to drive 1/4 mile out of the way to bring it to our house so she avoids this at all costs. Yesterday she somehow managed to jam the proverbial square peg into the round hole- NO idea how she got this box in there but it was NOTTTT coming out!! My plan was to snatch and flee- no such luck! I ended up having to literally dismantle the friggin thing while it was still in the mailbox to remove it-gave me the willies. It was something electronic my husband ordered, so stuck the whole mangled mess on the table next to his chair. Should have seen his face! Ordinarily would treat myself to another 3 day avoidance spree....... . Sigh. But won't.

 

[Nighthawk]

My dare for the week.

To not let the stuff with the house push me over the edge. I need luck with this one

NH

 

[BloomInWinter]

OMG I'm still working on the train one. Have done many little ones, though...

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[Kintsugi]

I guess I assumed it sounded pathetic because I started reading 'sorry' and getting hugs,etc....I don't do well when I think someone is feeling sympathy towards me. Maybe deep down I still feel all the things done to me were well deserved. IDK...
"it's your fault because you're a girl."....that's what I was told as I was soaking in the bleach...

I realize that this is an old thread, but I want you to know that upon reading your story, I did not feel 'sorry,' I felt incredibly angry. I know that you feel shame, that there is someone inside you telling you it's your fault. I get these feelings, too. But this experience was *%!#ed up! And *I* and *ashamed* of *her* for doing something so reprehensible. Just think, what would the adults who surround you today say about this behavior? How would your mother feel if this information was made public? When I am blaming myself for my trauma, it is helpful for me to think that my abusers would be humiliated by others knowing of their actions. The shame belongs to them. You are an admirable, brave, strong person who has been treated with injustice.

 

[alixipain]

JB look on the bright side... when I'm in a tub I feel like a sardine! six foot two into a four foot tub....:roflmao::roflmao::roflmao: its either feet half way up the wall or sit up right feet out front knees bent an sitting straight up.

DARES:
1 not to freeze on contractors test
2 get a new job
3 find me a small plot of and & pay it off/put a small house on it for me, and a room with bath for g/f preferably not attached to my place!
4 buy a new car.
5 go back to school
6 start my on plumbing company
7 be able to live without craving the touch of another human!!!

 

[atl22]

Dare:
1) Get a plant. Smell the dirt every day.

After starting my trauma diary, I had the sudden realization that I hate the smell of dirt because it is the first thing that I smelled after the smell of the gunshot that killed my best friend. The smell of earth/dirt and gunshots are inextricably linked for me, at this point in time.

Last week, I finally made it out of the house to be social and I went to my friend's house. He and his girlfriend had some cool plants. I have never had a plant in my life. She offered to give me a cutting to start my own. I'm going to take her up on it. I am going to get a plant and I am going to smell that dirt every day until I no longer have this negative and triggering association.

Damn. SUDS went way up just writing that. This is going to be one of the most difficult things that I have ever attempted.

Poco a poco, se llega lejos. (Little by little, you get very far.)

 

[Abbi]

Now I wanna take that inner critic in your head and beat the #$#@@!!! outta her! :mad:

OH OH fun party Idea!!! Lets all beat up our inner "bully child" woo hoo: finger food, soda and bloodshed for the inner bully - I'm in!

My Dares ongoing:
#1 establishing something of quasi Normal sleep (geez it has been #1 on the list a long long time)
#2 making myself be outside the house at least 30 minutes each day, I probably have vitamin D deficiency at this point

My Dare for today:
Open the piece of mail from my Ex that has been sitting 2 days, I cant even look at it. I have picked it up a dozen times and feel the anxiety coming on, its disturbing just to see his handwriting...then I promptly throw it in a drawer out of sight. Today, ehhhhh ermmm well by tomorrow maybe?

 

[Nighthawk]

A dare I am not sure I can achieve.... Forgive myself for not being good enough.
Learn that mistakes happen.
Stop smoking again:eek:

 

[mohsen]

My dare,

I'm working on the triggers. I'm seeking for them instead of escaping them. And I feel it's really working. Because the trigger is a clue to what happened before, and I'm trying to attach those stressful memories to the long memory. However, I hope someone with more experience assists me, and I'm looking for someone who has experience in this field.