ED Ptsd & eating disorder

[Be Braver]

Hello,

I was wondering if other people are dealing with the daunting task of recovering from an eating disorder and PTSD. I get so overwhelmed when trying to work on my recovery and I could use a buddy or two.

 

[gealach]

Hello,

I was wondering if other people are dealing with the daunting task of recovering from an eati...

Yup, I do. I was anorexic when I was still working, but started binge eating when I went on disability. Meds made the binging worse, and now... full blown disorder.

Sending support your way.

 

[RecoveringEater]

Yeah disordered eating big time!

I have to work on it big time!

 

[Be Braver]

My automatic response too stress is to restrict. Even when I'm hungry. Like tonight, I'm upset, and I'm hungry and I'm f*cking debating over if I should eat or not. I had an egg today... and that it, and I'm like but I'm stressed so I should skip dinner because it makes me feel better... But I know I'm also going to starve myself to death like this.

 

[hojita]

Yes, I do!

I actually just left residential. Trauma re-triggered my ED and I fell hard back into bulimia. It's so much to tackle.....


you're not alone.

 

[Be Braver]

@hojita @brokenEMT Thanks for your replies guys. I've been finding my ED gets way stronger when other things are less prevalent. I feel like I switch between issues. If my anxiety is low, my ED behaviors are awful, and vice versa... Do you both have the same problem?

 

[Ronin]

I'm trying to recover from years of being starved.

It was 'just' an eating disorder before then, and I don't feel hunger / pain the same anymore. So it's daily chores to push through, or not.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

My automatic response too stress is to restrict.

Yes, that's me as well.

I'm trying to recover from years of being starved.

I've actually got medical proof of starving myself. My endocrinologist tested my Basal Metabolic Rate and discovered it is 1800 when it should be 2377.8. That's how many calories one needs to just lie completely still though not sleeping. I still don't eat right when I'm anxious.

I think the best thing about my new T is that she works with clients who have eating disorders. So this is going to be addressed. Finally.

 

[WishfulThinking123]

@Be Braver wow, I'm sorry you are going through all of that, I can sympathize with you how tackling two issues at once is hard! Although I have never had an ED I can really relate to your above statement

I feel like I switch between issues. If my anxiety is low, my ED behaviors are awful, and vice versa... Do you both have the same problem?

I have about 2 main issues right now and I do feel like I bounce back and forth between them like I have to struggle with one. They are both my unhealthy coping mechanisms (sexting and self harm). If my t is like you have to stop that or give up that I always seem to just find another unhealthy coping mechanism. For instance, drinking used to be an issue for me and my T wanted me to give that up...ok but then of course to cope with the PTSD/everything I started cutting. I can really relate, you are not alone in feeling this way!

 

[Be Braver]

@WishfulThinking123 It's so annoying. I want to tackle both but I don't have the tools to not have something else creep up. I used to also self harm but I have been able to overcome that. It used to be switching between self harm and my ED. But once everything surfaced it isn't a main issue.

 

[Dying inside]

Yup for sure! I go from full on restricting & lax abuse to binging. No purging just excessive exercise for hours on end. It's a completely f*cked up cycle that only seems to help temporarily with my anxiety depression.... I'd love a buddy:)

 

[Rainbow child]

I agree totally that I find I switch between different things and actually came to this site again today after a long time in the hope that I could connect to some other people who are also struggling with similar issues at the same time as their ED, as I just feels so much more complex in many ways than the depth of things I have been seeing on the eating disorder forums and hopefully I may be able to connect a bit more on here again as I know I have found it very helpful in the past.
Helen