ED Ptsd & eating disorder

[ms spock]

I have an antidepressant that I was on and finally quit, It made me so hungry and gain a ton of weight that I am working on losing.

I have had the same challenge. I went down to 150 mg.

 

[ms spock]

... only to find that we've been born into other various chemical addictions fostered from birth that are said to be vital, nutritious, highly regulated and safe, FDA approved, and often times specifically designed in little test tubes in some factory to be highly addictive to ensure ongoing and repeated purchases.

I have been doing some research into this and it is quite fascinating. If you have any suggested books or websites I would be interested to read your suggestions.

No wonder we struggle like a mofo when trying to figure it all out as it pertains to our individual circumstances and biology. Misled, mis-fed, and pretty much left for dead is how I felt.

It is very disappointing.

The only things that truly help keep me well in that regard now are remembering how bad I felt before in every single area of my life, learning to make dishes/snacks/beverages that taste a lot like the "comfort" things I used to not be able to control myself around so I feel like I'm not depriving myself, and to only stock the ingredients I know I can safely and healthily consume and not suffer the deep emotional hangovers once I do.

Food was my family growing up.

I don't have to restrict my overall intake as much when I make the cleaner forms of nutritious stuff available, as long as I remain mindful of not eating solid food after dinner. If I start that again, it ends up leading to late night binging, as I used to do.

With lots of adjustments I am slowly learning how not to do this.

If I were giving up alcohol, I sure as hell couldn't frequent the bar.

Yeah that is is isn't it? You just have to keep away from it all, as much as possible.

It's the absolute hardest thing I've faced in my life so far.

For me it means starting to be in my body and feel feelings and I am so scared about doing it.

May we all find our comfort in things that don't harm us any further. It's a f'n jungle out there.

Yeah it is hard.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I mentioned some books and such in the other thread. As I happen upon and remember others, I'll share.

 

[Changing4Best]

There are several books published by Overeaters Anonymous which one can look into at:

Newcomers - Overeaters Anonymous

many of which are helping me, as well as the 12 step program of OA too. I am struggling, yes, but I have not slipped into outright binges or pigging out, as I used to call it. I am slightly overweight, like maybe 10 pounds, 5 above my top BMI or so, I guess. I think since I am taking 2 meds that cause weight gain, I should not feel too bad about that last. It could be far worse!

 

[Flip flop]

Hello,

I was wondering if other people are dealing with the daunting task of recovering from an eati...

Best wishes to you on your recovery journey!

I envy those who can go into ED recovery. Orthorexia is a decades long 24/7/365 situation for me. Right now, I am in a very restrictive mode of disordered eating. Hmmm...maybe I shouldn’t have put this here.

 

[Muted]

Hmmm...maybe I shouldn’t have put this here.

Why not?

 

[Flip flop]

Yup for sure! I go from full on restricting & lax abuse to binging. No purging just excessive exer...

Buddies...I wish I could be that positive

Why not?

Thanks for asking. Just concerned that my post might have been triggering in some way or inappropriate to the OP.

 

[Muted]

Are you in recovery @Flip flop or do you feel like you’re regressing?

I can’t answer for the OP, but my take was that the OP was looking for other people who were struggling with overcoming EDs. It sounds to me like you are.

 

[Flip flop]

Are you in recovery @Flip flop or do you feel like you’re regressing?

I can’t an...

Thank you for asking.

Regressing.....no. How can one regress if one has never really recovered? I am full-blown ProAna and I am actively in a serious restricting mode and am scouring the internet for places where I can find consistent help.
I don’t believe in recovery from this any more than I believe in the f_____g Tooth Fairy. Of course, that is speaking for myself only and not intended to be projected onto anyone else who actually does recover or who has hope of making ED go away.
Sorry if I sound angry. I have been feeling desperate for the last three days. Less than 7k calories consumed in 13 days.
No money for any kind of “traditional treatment/ED recovery resort” or whatever those places are now. I have a lot of hatred...yes, HATRED, for EDtreatment places as I consider them all creations of scam artists.
I am waiting to hear back from an acquaintance who might be willing to help motivate and encourage me in improving myself.

Well, sorry for the rant/vent.

 

[Gs172003]

Hello,

I was wondering if other people are dealing with the daunting task of recovering from an eati...

I'm not working on the ED per se but the more I deal with my stuff the more the ED seems to slow down.

 

[Muted]

How can one regress if one has never really recovered?

Great question....

I don’t believe in recovery anymore either, even if there are times of weight gain, it’s always lurking and waiting right around the corner.

I’d die before I ever put myself into a treatment center ever again. They’re monsters.

 

[Gs172003]

Thank you for asking.

Regressing.....no. How can one regress if one has never really recovered?...

Proana? Is that the group that promotes anorexia?