Sufferer Ptsd From Childhood Sexual Abuse

[FaerieJayne]

Hi. I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse by two people in my family who were meant to love and protect me. Because of this I have severe flashbacks, dissociation, and I'm super jumpy to noise like slamming doors and things.

I'm currently in therapy for this, however I am finding it so hard to talk to her, and express out loud any of my story. She wants me to talk about my flashbacks but I cannot do it in depth. Instead I pretend like it's someone else's story' until the body memories kick me.

I thought I'd come to this site and see if I can meet people who have similar experiences with flashbacks, and dissociation. I won't talk about them all in here just now though. I would love to learn how you all deal with these because I find it extra difficult. I am trying to sleep at night, as well as deal with noises and frights during the day which can trigger me at any time.

Anyway, thanks for reading this, and thanks for letting me sign up to your community.

 

[Deleted member 17790]

Hi I'm new here as well- yes body memories are distressing...

 

[FaerieJayne]

Yes they are, I actually didn't know about them until recently... I mean, I didn't know what I felt was normal. You know? I thought I was strange, so it is good to know we are not alone.

 

[BigBear]

FJ,

This is a great start. I think that reading people's diaries might be a good place to start. Just remember there are some very bad stories here. Some of them are going to trigger you. Go easy and be prepared to step away from stories that are too much for you... No shame in that! We each have to live within our tolerances. They are all different. And they are REAL!

Glad that your are here, and Welcome!

Bear

 

[FaerieJayne]

Thank you Bear. I will definitely tread carefully here. Thank you.

 

[Ricanoland]

my family who were meant to love and protect me. Because of this I have severe flashbacks, dissociation, and I'm super jumpy to noise like slamming doors and things.

This hits home for me, I wish you the best, I am glad you found this forum. There are amazing people here always willing to be supportive of you, and your issues.

Ricanoland

 

[FaerieJayne]

Thank you so much Riconoland. I am so glad to be here.

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

I hope you find the information and support as helpful as I have.

 

[FaerieJayne]

Thank you very much KP.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Hello and welcome to the forum. It's a pleasure to meet you. :)

 

[FaerieJayne]

It's a pleasure to meet you also, and thank you.