Ptsd Is Killing Me.

[anni]

Hi Richard,

I'm just saying welcome a little late, and do not have anything to add to what's been said. You write so well of what you're going through and where you've been, what you fear and wish- I usually have trouble staying focused on long posts but didn't with yours. It was so clear.

Having had zero experience with combat, of course can't venture further than 'welcome' but at least wished to do that, and also agree massively with your McGovern quote also. Whew. I hadn't heard that one- it's very, very good.

Do take care,

Anni

 

[The Albatross]

Glad you're here Richard, and posting. Keep up the participation and share as you are able and give it a voice. It has helped me a lot in the past three weeks when I found this place.

 

[Buck Compton]

Thank you Anni, its nice to know that people are recognizing what i am saying, and that my words are not falling onto deaf ears. I have always prided myself on my ability to write, i should have discovered this outlet for my PTSD earlier, i think it could have done me a lot of good in the last few years, better late then never huh? its good to finally give a voice to my trauma (like The Albatross said), and get some of these thoughts that have been swimming around upstairs onto paper (computer)

 

[KP the nut]

the feeling of being alone in my trauma was overwhelming, and your responses have helped alleviate some of that feeling and that is amazing. I have to admit, its hard to come to this forum and speak though,

Hi Richard, welcome to the forum. It is great that you have found us. I know many of us here thought we were alone and no-one understood how we are feeling. Here, whatever the trauma is acceptance, understanding, support and friendship.

You have taken the first major step in finding the courage to post. Now it is a case of learning and taking tiny steps

(((HUGS))) if you will accept them
KP

 

[jimmy-joe]

You might have already heard this idea, but i've heard about having a hobby that you can put your whole mind and/or body into, that isn't destructive, as a way to calm down. For me that is video games, although I go waaaay too far down that path, and like mowing lawns, or something where you can see and feel the change. They aren't cure-alls, but they help in the moment. Of course i may be wrong but lol it helps me at work

 

[anni]

It's tough to have pride in anything with oneself with the whole PTSD/self esteem shredding the stuffing out of what used to be the ego. If you've been able to at least recognize this in yourself it's something lovely to sort of hold on to through the dreck. Nice! There are various threads here where people manage to pop their talented heads up and admit to some wonderful gifts finally- as you say, better late than never! All you'll ever get is encouraged here, if you have the time to browse those threads. Writing, art, photography-there are a few so hopefully you'll feel free to just pretty much be as expressive as you'd like.

 

[Buck Compton]

Thank you to all of you. Lately my symptoms have been improving, lets hope this continues :)

 

[Prettysmile]

Hi Richard. Congrats on being a new Dad. Its normal for any man with our without PTSD to be a little worried and nervous about being a father. No parent is perfect. Even the good ones arent perfect. They try their best and thats all you can do.

I am new to this this forum. I am trying to learn as much as I can about combat PTSD because the man that I love sufferrs from it. I thank you for telling your expierence. By doing so your not only helping yourself but helping others like me. I often times feel like my Marine/Sufferer shuts me out. You said that the only person you spend time with is your girlfriend. Gee thats nice. I wish My marine would spend more time with me. But when he is going through those very exact same symptoms you described in your introduction he isolates himself and sometimes I wont hear or speak to him for days sometimes weeks. Reading your expierence kind of makes me hear what he is not telling me. I can undertsand him more. Thanks. And its been 6 months since your intro. I hope things have been looking upward for you since then. take care. :)

 

[jo may]

Hi Richard and welcome:)​

I feel like that some days but I have found this site so helpful and I hope you do too.​

Take care​

JM​

 

[Anthraseen]

Hi Richard
Welcome. I hope things are going well. I feel like that a lot too- I also had a family member in the service who was a soldier in Vietnam. He didn't fight combat, was in the navy medical corps. When he returned his wife, a nurse, observed some of the same symptoms you are describing. He had night sweats and he also used to watch his slide shows of the friends there, some of whom had died in combat. I went with him to the Vietnam Memorial:) to put some of the names on paper. So even though you fought in another war decades later, you are getting help. I don't think my loved one ever did receive help. He lived to be almost 70 and still to that day I think he remembered Vietnam.... So, you are not alone!

 

[jo may]

I feel like it's killing me at the moment, it's certainly ruining my life.
I am just not coping with being part of the real world, I'm giving thought to taking up a offer of help.
But I'd have to be admitted tto hospital and I have kids so it's hard, but I'm failing at the moment.

How are you coping now??