Putting The Pieces Back Together

[Lethe]

How do you pull all the pieces of yourself back together? When it was all going on, I learned to split the feelings apart, to break everything into different pieces or modes. You know, I pushed the fear into one part over here, the anger into another part, the sadness into another. Over time, they just became more separated and distinct, to where know I have to concentrate to pull those emotional centers back up to where I'm getting and feeling those emotions. But they're not connected and mixed together. It just seems unnatural to have all those pieces of yourself all pulled together and where you're feeling everything at once. My therapist and I have talked about this and how I need to pull the pieces back together and not have these different "modes", but I have a hard time figuring out how. And it makes me nervous to think about having everything pulled together at once.

 

[onebravegirl]

It can be so overwhelming when you see where you are at and then where you want to get too. They key is patience. CPTSD is going to take you on a journey. Sometimes you have to swim for your life and sometimes you have to float. The journey is never a race and hurrying the process never works.
I am trying to say that you need to be very patient with yourself. If you really want to figure out this illness-and I am sure you do-it will be worth the needed discipline.
Discipline is the name of the game and it is an art. Good art work is beautiful.
You do not need to pull everything together at once, in fact you can't. No one can.
I am glad that you are here. Take things day by day, question by question. We will help.
O

 

[adrian_newbridge]

I think we all rush to heal ourselves in the beginning, what you are feeling is, remember, natural. Take your time. Baby steps, a journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step. I recall all these types of advice when I was first diagnosed and thought, no way, I will sort everything out as soon as possible and get back to normal quickly. I soon found out it doesn't work like that. Be gentle with yourself and heal slowly, you will get to where you want to be eventually. Good luck and we are all rooting for you.

 

[bonnecanyon]

I've only been in therapy a few months and I feel like I am spinning my wheels at times. I get frustrated because I think I am making progress and then I get stuck again. It is a process and I need to keep reminding myself of that. It took years for me to get here so I can't expect to heal overnight. It is a journey and I want to stay focused on my progress not on my setbacks.

I like OneBraveGirl's comment: sometimes you have to swim for your life and sometimes you have to float. I need to learn to float.

BC