General Rant and complain thread open to all supporters

[Freida]

When he's symptomatic he loses weight.

why o why does that never happen to me?! :laugh:

 

[LuckiLee]

You must not be symptomatic enough. <Sarcasm> ??

 

[NaeNae75]

I lose weight like crazy when symptomatic too.... eating feels like a chore. I'll go daddy's without eating, but then my daughter puts food in front of me. I eat Keto, so it's not a big deal since I'm already in ketosis... it just feeds on itself.... ......and there's still an abundance for it to feed away on.
Part of it is not wanting to eat, so...me of it is it feels like so much work to prepare anything or have dishes to attend to... .so if it's not something I can eat easy, like unwrap and toss with no real mess... I'd just rather not. Ive gotten to the point I'll live in prepackaged hard boiled eggs, string cheese, and pre cut veggies. Peel off the wrapper, eat, and toss. Pffft some days that even feels like too much work.

 

[Never_falter2]

LOL file it under "messing with civilians" -- we do the same thing in public safety (but don't tell anyone :laugh: )

Too late now. I am one of THEM and no I already know?. But could you tell me one of those story’s? I love story’s like that. In Germany all lot of men have to tell the story of a crazy drill sergeant (because of the draft a lot of men had the chance to meet him). This man must have been serving at numerous places at the same time. The stories typically end with him being locked away for the rest of his life. We must have hundreds of hospitals of full of crazy drill sergeants in our country.

Funny note -- yes, they came with toothpicks and a pack of cigarettes. yep. cigarettes. They were like prison cash - if you didn't smoke you could make all sorts of amazing trades.:laugh:

THe toothpicks or the cigarettes? Just kidding, of course I know it was the toothpicks? after all everybody knows how addictive they are?... btw... does anybody have a toothpick for me? I need a toothpick RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Never_falter2]

You must not be symptomatic enough. <Sarcasm> ??

If you aren’t symptomatic enough can traumatize you a bit more @Freida. No problem?

 

[Never_falter2]

Part of it is not wanting to eat, so...me of it is it feels like so much work to prepare anything or have dishes to attend to... .so if it's not something I can eat easy, like unwrap and toss with no real mess... I'd just rather not. Ive gotten to the point I'll live in prepackaged hard boiled eggs, string cheese, and pre cut veggies. Peel off the wrapper, eat, and toss. Pffft some days that even feels like too much work.

Is this a bit like depression?

 

[Freida]

You must not be symptomatic enough. <Sarcasm> ??

LOL nope -- nothing to see here all is well! :laugh:

If you aren’t symptomatic enough can traumatize you a bit more @Freida. No problem?

Ahhhh way to be a team player! :roflmao:

But could you tell me one of those story’s?

lemme think up one.. :)

 

[NaeNae75]

Is this a bit like depression?

It may be likely. But I've been very tired lately. I've been working on a lot of hard stuff in therapy, and my relationship with my vet is lack luster right now to say the least....So I'm exhausted. I don't want to do anything else...not even eat. Sometimes it feels like I have to choose between eating and showering, and showering/bath wins every time...That's relaxing to me. Eating can be triggering. (But I do have past eating disorder as a teen)

 

[anon1234]

Not a rant. But something threw me off kilter today and I need to get it off my chest. I woke up this morning after having a dream that he hadn’t been in combat. He was just an arts graduate who liked hanging out with friends, going outdoors and listening to music. How he once was. It’s hit me all in the face again. I just took a shower and am going to get some fresh air. He’s isolating after telling me he was going to go away for a while. He didn’t want to upset me. I think it’s the not knowing what is going to happen that makes me it so challenging. I feel like I am oscillating between mourning him and being OK with it. Like it’s final but it isn’t at the same time.

 

[shatter eyes]

If i smell like pee why dont the therapist say i smell like peeeeee rather than writing in my chart i smell like pee.
Sometimes it is very hard to shower or bathe. I do what i can like brush teeth or wash hair.

That messes with my head. Now if someone says i smell like shiit i might think i pooped myself....ever so slightly but enough to share.

Tired rant but yea.. i tell ppl if they have shoelace undone... why cant ppl like therapist just tell me dude u smell like PPPPPPP.

 

[Never_falter2]

@shatter eyes: Is there perhaps a way how you can make bathing more enjoyable for you? Yes, I agree that this therapist is very odd and patronizing.

@anon1234 ? But parts of him still is this arts graduate, isn’t he? What I mean to say is that of course people are changed by there experience but they still are themselves aren’t they? Sorry if I say something stupid.

 

[anon1234]

But parts of him still is this arts graduate, isn’t he?

Yeah, there are parts but I don’t see them often :( Right now he is isolating and suggested I would be better off without him. This time I’m not sure if it’s over or not :( I guess I had a glimpse into a different life.

You didn’t say anything stupid at all. I really geninuely accept him for who he is. I just hate seeing him in so much pain and I wish I could have a conversation with him to reassure him he was not a bad person. But that cannot be had right now.