Reaching Out

[Bristol]

i am branching out from my trauma diary because i just need to make contact with some humans. I have been really lonely this weekend, dealing with feeling suicidal and battling self harm, the fact that im fighting it all must be a good sign. Feeling really anxious because my T wants to start seeing me twice a week starting from this week. I appreciate her taking extra time but i have the voice in my head that says im not worth her time and i should tell her i dont need it etc i know she is doing it because she thinks i nerd rhe extra support but it seems to have really turned up the depression and anxiety because somehow thinking i need extra support makes me feel weak. I'm not even sure why im posting its more of a, im here, i still exist but im struggling and feeling alone in the house, this is a really pointless post but im trying to learn to say what im feeling and trying to get out of my head.

 

[Rani G2]

I have similar thoughts Bristol, I feel very lonely, isolated, disconnected.

Sorry, you feel this way. I feel with you

 

[Bristol]

I have similar thoughts Bristol, I feel very lonely, isolated, disconnected.

Sorry, you feel this way....

Thank you, so sorry you are feeling this too though

 

[Muttly]

I have felt that in the past. The voices in your head are lies. They really are. Go to the extra sessions. They will help. And you are definitely worth it.

 

[Bristol]

I have felt that in the past. The voices in your head are lies. They really are. Go to the extra session...

Thanks @Muttly

 

[FauxLiz]

@Bristol don't think that you are weak because your T wants to have extra sessions with you. I have 2 sessions a week with my T. I have for over a year now, in my case I was the one that asked for more than a standard once a week 50 min session. I asked for us to either move to a 90 min sessions or twice a week. He tells me that I have done serious work and taken big steps forward. Think of this as a positive opportunity, he wants to help and see you improve and he believes this will help.

 

[Bristol]

@FauxLiz thanks for replying, i hope your right, i think its just something i need to get used to