I'm healing. I really am! For a couple of months now I've been feeling discontent. I thought I was losing ground in my recovery. But when I woke up this morning, I had another insight. I think this might be a pattern. I get moody and dissatisfied with everything, and then BANG! I've been propelled forward!
When I am working toward a goal, I'm the most stubborn, single-minded person I know. It's starting to feel like every moment of my life was preparing me for this battle! Kind of like Owen Meany, but not so spectacular. :)
The way I look at all of the relationships in my life has changed, I guess because I've changed. I think I'm becoming able to meet my needs, which means that I don't have to look to others to meet those needs. Well, it's not that simple, but it's moving in that direction.
I'm feeling positive right now. I'm feeling good about myself. I might feel like shit again tomorrow, but I'm enjoying today!
