Sufferer Recent Diagnosis

[ChandraD]

My name is Chandra. I was diagnosed with PTSD 2 months ago when I was hospitalized for the first time. I was back in the hospital 4 weeks later. I think my meds are pretty good. I am not working or going to school. I can't really handle much of anything. I had a very intense flashback last night. I think now that I am relaxing my body is beginning to thaw and the memories are coming back. I have complex PTSD from my childhood. I never realized it and lived a relatively ok life. I have an adopted daughter with autism who is very violent. I endured being beat up by her repeatedly for years. Sometimes more that once a day. For a long time I became a robot and thought I was ok. She has been living in group homes but had to live with us for 3 weeks in January. Living again with my trigger caused a breakdown. I wanted to hurt myself and it eventually lead to suicidal thoughts (hence the hospitalizations). I have a great doctor and a therapist. I know this is going to be a long road to recovery.

 

[ladee]

Welcome! A long journey? Yes. Sometimes so painful we forget to breathe? Yes.
But you will never be alone again unless you choose to be.
This is a very caring and supportive healing place.
We are happy you found us.

 

[lux.]

Welcome. I think you'll find a lot of kindred spirits here. A lot of people who can understand what you've been through and are going through. I also didn't get diagnosed with PTSD until I was...I think 28. I didn't think my childhood trauma was that bad, so I was kind of surprised when I got the diagnosis. I hope the site will be helpful to you.

 

[walter mitty]

Hi Chandra, again welcome. I enjoyed meeting you today in the chat room and am glad you found us. Hope to see you again soon, and hope you get that script issues resolved soon.