nekograssman
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I changed my beard style and cut my hair, then called my mom up. She began to cry a lot and later that day I noticed just how strongly I resemble my uncle, who is my mom's older brother. I don't look like my dad at all.
I... am at a total loss about how to feel about all of this. Now I understand why my mom sometimes treated me like such shit out of nowhere when I was a kid and I have a lot more compassion for her than I used to. (We have a rather interesting relationship - she loves me to bits and has been very much the momma bear because she always wanted children, but I can't imagine it was easy raising me sometimes.)
I'm also feeling extremely weirded out at the fact that, even though I grew up across the country from my uncle, I ended up with some common interests as to him and I share some of his less desirable personality traits. I'm like a living "nature or nurture?" example. (That last bit of scientific-minded thinking would be the "nurture" aspect of my dad lol.)
I can't wait for my beard to grow back. (I typically wear it in a more natural look instead of making the pattern I did.) Thankfully my beard grows back in a week. Genetics!!
So I've been looking online for support groups or resources. So far I've found:
* Articles about the feelings of the mother
* Articles and support groups targeted towards people who themselves were sexually abused
* A huge list of a bunch of medical conditions - I feel like I dodged some bullets (though I definitely inherited my uncle's severe mental disorder, thanks dude)
But I haven't found very much for ... others in my situation. idk. I just kind of feel alone right now and I'm looking for anyone who can identify with any of this.
I... am at a total loss about how to feel about all of this. Now I understand why my mom sometimes treated me like such shit out of nowhere when I was a kid and I have a lot more compassion for her than I used to. (We have a rather interesting relationship - she loves me to bits and has been very much the momma bear because she always wanted children, but I can't imagine it was easy raising me sometimes.)
I'm also feeling extremely weirded out at the fact that, even though I grew up across the country from my uncle, I ended up with some common interests as to him and I share some of his less desirable personality traits. I'm like a living "nature or nurture?" example. (That last bit of scientific-minded thinking would be the "nurture" aspect of my dad lol.)
I can't wait for my beard to grow back. (I typically wear it in a more natural look instead of making the pattern I did.) Thankfully my beard grows back in a week. Genetics!!
So I've been looking online for support groups or resources. So far I've found:
* Articles about the feelings of the mother
* Articles and support groups targeted towards people who themselves were sexually abused
* A huge list of a bunch of medical conditions - I feel like I dodged some bullets (though I definitely inherited my uncle's severe mental disorder, thanks dude)
But I haven't found very much for ... others in my situation. idk. I just kind of feel alone right now and I'm looking for anyone who can identify with any of this.
