It's almost a year since my attacker stopped tourmenting me and although we live in the same town I've thankfully not seen him once, it's the one thing I've been dreading more than anything, mainly because I'm terrified he will see me and then decide he's not done with me.
One of my coworkers, the sales manager, knows something bad went on with me and the man who attacked me but he doesn't know what it was (he knows this because the man who attacked me used to work for the same company)
Me and the sales manager went prospecting in the town yesterday and he told me I might want to keep a low profile, I looked down my road and saw my attacker coming up the street with a girl and instantly started hyperventilating and panicking. He took me into the shop we were next to to get me out the way and calm me down and told me to breathe but then I saw my attacker turning into the shop we were in.
He saw me and gave me the most angry disgusted look, it's the exact look I've been dreading seeing from him all this time, I turned around and faced the other way crying and shaking until he'd gone down and aisle and my sales manager took me out of the shop and into another one to get me some water.
I couldn't stop shaking or control my breathing, there's nothing and no one that terrifies me as much as my attacker and that look he gave me that I know too well.
My sales manager couldn't get his words out to talk to me, he was completely shocked "I've never seen... Tell me to shut up but I've never seen anyone like that... React like that to seeing someone... What did he do to you?"
I didn't tell him. He told me things that other people have told him about my attacker, that he's tried to beat this person up and that another person said he's turned up at a guys house at midnight for texting his girlfriend and that he knew there was something evil about him.
I'm completely shaken. I can't shake that look, I'm so scared he'll come back into my life, he's the human form of evil in my eyes.
For the first time in a while yesterday I had the images of harming myself in my head, I didn't and I won't but I can feel myself crumbling.
This is a huge deal to me, I've been anticipating this for so long and it was just as terrifying as I expected
One of my coworkers, the sales manager, knows something bad went on with me and the man who attacked me but he doesn't know what it was (he knows this because the man who attacked me used to work for the same company)
Me and the sales manager went prospecting in the town yesterday and he told me I might want to keep a low profile, I looked down my road and saw my attacker coming up the street with a girl and instantly started hyperventilating and panicking. He took me into the shop we were next to to get me out the way and calm me down and told me to breathe but then I saw my attacker turning into the shop we were in.
He saw me and gave me the most angry disgusted look, it's the exact look I've been dreading seeing from him all this time, I turned around and faced the other way crying and shaking until he'd gone down and aisle and my sales manager took me out of the shop and into another one to get me some water.
I couldn't stop shaking or control my breathing, there's nothing and no one that terrifies me as much as my attacker and that look he gave me that I know too well.
My sales manager couldn't get his words out to talk to me, he was completely shocked "I've never seen... Tell me to shut up but I've never seen anyone like that... React like that to seeing someone... What did he do to you?"
I didn't tell him. He told me things that other people have told him about my attacker, that he's tried to beat this person up and that another person said he's turned up at a guys house at midnight for texting his girlfriend and that he knew there was something evil about him.
I'm completely shaken. I can't shake that look, I'm so scared he'll come back into my life, he's the human form of evil in my eyes.
For the first time in a while yesterday I had the images of harming myself in my head, I didn't and I won't but I can feel myself crumbling.
This is a huge deal to me, I've been anticipating this for so long and it was just as terrifying as I expected
