Scared To Go To Sleep

[nimkekaa]

is this something that has happened in your life? I mean looking in vain for help or rescue?

Yes. I grew up in a violent home and felt trapped. I was terrified for my life with good reason. My father killed a woman right in front of me and then made me help dispose of her body. I was 8 years old. I repressed the memory but was always afraid to do wrong. I didn't remember the murder until I was in my thirties, in a stable and loving marriage and hadn't seem my parents in quite a few years. I guess I finally felt safe enough to remember things.

I have had nightmares before but nothing with the same theme for 3 nights in a row. Guess I need to take this to my therapist.

I am heading out backcountry camping this weekend and that always helps me. The trees, rocks and well everything nature has a way of telling me how to get through things. Some people things it is silly but I talk to the trees and rocks and they help me. I have learned my most important lessons from nature.

Anyway as a sleep update, I slept good last night. I did take a sleeping pill with my other meds which I don't think is recommended. I have a dr appointment tomorrow so I will clarify then but I was so asleep last night that I didn't even hear my hubby get up and go to work really early this morning. So at least I got a good night sleep. I did dream but it wasn't as scary or I just don't remember it I was so out. Either way it was way more peaceful waking this morning. :D

 

[Abstract]

I am sorry that happened to you as an 8 year old child. These things should not happen.

I have always found that recurring dreams are very important and hope you speak about it with your t like you plan to.

Very glad you had a good sleep!

 

[Britt.f7]

Sometimes I am scared to go to sleep, but I'm never sure why. Those are nights when insomnia steps in. I'm not afraid of nightmares, I'm truly not sure of why I am scared. I'm just scared to sleep.

When my jaw has been tense and painful, I usually take some ibuprofen before I go to sleep. I also do some jaw exercises to try and loosen my jaw up. Both of them seem to help lessen any pain I may feel the next day.