Scared To Tell T. :(

[Wrknprgrss]

I had a memory triggered tonight ... I know how to process it on my own now, but little aardvark is scared to tell T. this one. You see I have a box ... and in my box are secrets that we don't want to tell T every because we are too ashamed. We have told T about one secret .... it was the hardest thing we ever did. Little aardvark doesn't wanna tell T about the triggered memory because it is a window to things in our box.

... we're scared :goingtocry:

 

[Lucycat]

I'm sure you are scared, but you need to tell T.

T will not judge. He will understand the feelings of shame and will help you resolve that. T cannot help if you don't tell him. As always, if the words are too hard write it down for him to read. One way or another you have to share it, to process it and move on.

Good luck!

 

[kimba]

The writing it down definately helps. When my little decided she wanted to share parts of memories I didn't have, we wrote them together with her telling me what to put down. Then I read it to my T (which led to a body memory by the way). She was great and just listened without judgement. My T allowed us to rip the whole thing up and throw it away when we were done. What I didn't know is that I was ahead of the process and it was too early to get into the memories and discovering little Me was enough for the time being so we put the memories on the back curner for now while we are dealing with the "parts" and "safety" etc.

 

[Wrknprgrss]

I agree writing it down helps. T has me doing this on my own now and we process the feelings together. I know she won't judge me for the memory ... but I judge myself and the shame of the thing makes it difficult to tell her because her opinion of me matters. I realize I just contradicted myself in that sentence ... but it is what it is. I am sure I will end up telling her ... no use going if I'm going to hold back important information ... but when I think of telling her the shame overwhelms me despite logic telling me that this will be another step on the healing path ... I know it will be okay ... just convincing my IC of that is harder ... :spin:

 

[cherryblossom]

It will be okay. It was okay when you told your T one secret. Your T respects you and IC, and can help you to move forwards. Good luck.