Searching In All Wrong Places

[poeticprincess88]

I have a problem with searching in all the wrong places for relationships. Last night I had ad posted on craigslist to meet with a girl.. only a girl. I turned bisexual because had bad luck in guy relationships. anyway this guy shows up at my house says him & his girlfriend want to meet me and she be over few minute. I was stupid and trusting then he forces himself all over me. I feel so stupid because if I would have never posted an ad on craigslist to be with a girl this would never happened. I'm tired of searching in all the wrong places for love. I just want to be happy but it's hard being happy alone.

I tried online dating stuff hoping I'd find him. Craigslist is not safe. It's free. I guess it's what you pay is what you get. I don't know.

I'm tired of being alone. I almost want to be right now. I have these sick fantasis in my mind going on and it freaks me out causes me shame. I feel sick/perverted becaue of all the fantasy stuff going on in my head.

My therapist told me it's normal women to buy sex toys and explore on their own. I feel so much shame.

 

[sooci]

Learning and accepting who you are inside and out, and being confident in the person you are can help attract all the right people. Whether it be with a man or woman. Focus on discovering yourself and let love find you. Definitely keep boundaries for yourself, and those worth your time will respect them.
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