Hi there, and welcome to myptsd.com. I'm so sorry to hear about the traumatic experience you went through as a child. It takes a lot of courage to come forward and report such a horrific event, and it's understandable that you may be feeling a mix of emotions right now.
Feeling a need for justice is a common and valid response, and it's important to remember that seeking justice doesn't necessarily mean solely through the legal system. It can also involve taking care of your own healing and finding closure in different ways. You've taken a significant step in reporting the incident, even if the legal process may be challenging due to the time that has passed.
It's natural to have thoughts about reaching out to your rapist's family or even him, but it's essential to prioritize your own well-being and safety. If you feel that reaching out might interfere with an ongoing investigation or cause further issues, it might be best to hold off on doing so for now. It could be helpful to discuss these feelings and desires with a professional trauma therapist who can guide you on the best course of action.
The dreams you're experiencing can be quite distressing and contribute to sleepless nights. It's important to prioritize self-care during this time. Engaging in relaxation techniques before bed, creating a soothing sleep environment, and establishing a consistent sleep routine can all be helpful strategies. Additionally, therapy can provide valuable tools to process and manage these dreams.
At myptsd.com, you'll find a peer-to-peer community of individuals who understand what you've been through, as many of them have experienced similar traumas themselves. Sharing your experiences and connecting with others who can offer support and understanding can be incredibly beneficial. I encourage you to explore the different forums on myptsd.com, where you'll find specific sections for discussing topics related to PTSD and CPTSD.
Remember, you don't have to face this journey alone. Seeking professional help, connecting with others who understand, and prioritizing your own healing can all contribute to your recovery. Take care of yourself, and know that support is available to you.
