Hello Community,
I have very vivid nightmares every night to the point that if I looked on a calendar of the last three years (how long they've been going on), I could recall nearly- if not all- of the nightmares I've had.
They are always of me getting hurt. At first it was unlikely things, like there was World War III and I was shot by a sniper. Then they were still unlikely, but rather than having random people (like the sniper shooter), they involved my close friends and family. For example, I dreamed that my friend set a building on fire when I was inside of it. For quite some time now, my nightmares are likely situations and have people close to me involved, like being raped by my therapist. Of course, people close to me hurting me like that- even if the setting or situation in the dream is likely to happen with those people- is unlikely. But the dreams are so vivid that when I wake up, it is sometimes hard to distinguish my dream from reality. The dreams used to have a strong impact on my relationships- if someone was in my dream and then I saw them that day, I would cry or feel very anxious. Now I have an easier time with telling myself that I trust these peopleand they will not hurt me.
The dreams stopped for a while when my psychiatrist prescribed me prazosin (aka Gods miracle for my PTSD), but soon I no longer needed it because I got good at lucid dreaming. Now, however, it has been hard to take control of my dreams because I'm having suicidal thoughts that make me anxious.
I hope that painted a picture of my situation. I am seeking suggestions on how to handle my nightmares. They are causing anxiety in my close relationships again, and I don't like it.
-Yoda53
I have very vivid nightmares every night to the point that if I looked on a calendar of the last three years (how long they've been going on), I could recall nearly- if not all- of the nightmares I've had.
They are always of me getting hurt. At first it was unlikely things, like there was World War III and I was shot by a sniper. Then they were still unlikely, but rather than having random people (like the sniper shooter), they involved my close friends and family. For example, I dreamed that my friend set a building on fire when I was inside of it. For quite some time now, my nightmares are likely situations and have people close to me involved, like being raped by my therapist. Of course, people close to me hurting me like that- even if the setting or situation in the dream is likely to happen with those people- is unlikely. But the dreams are so vivid that when I wake up, it is sometimes hard to distinguish my dream from reality. The dreams used to have a strong impact on my relationships- if someone was in my dream and then I saw them that day, I would cry or feel very anxious. Now I have an easier time with telling myself that I trust these peopleand they will not hurt me.
The dreams stopped for a while when my psychiatrist prescribed me prazosin (aka Gods miracle for my PTSD), but soon I no longer needed it because I got good at lucid dreaming. Now, however, it has been hard to take control of my dreams because I'm having suicidal thoughts that make me anxious.
I hope that painted a picture of my situation. I am seeking suggestions on how to handle my nightmares. They are causing anxiety in my close relationships again, and I don't like it.
-Yoda53