Self-hate

[WillyKat]

I feel like nobody gets it and that I don't really connect with anyone.

Me too.

 

[nimkekaa]

Me too.

Then I am wrong. We connect, you get it. ;):eek::yuck:

Sorry your feeling that way also.

 

[ms spock]

I don't really have people around who want to help. I am isolated. I have isolated myself.

I read the supporter's section and I am amazed that people support people with PTSD. I so want that, then my self hatred kicks in that I am not loveable enough.

I am not sure if it the self hatred that is so bad that means I can't attach to people or the lack of attachment that brings in the self hatred. I am so uncertain about myself and my life at the moment.

 

[ms spock]

The self hatred is in a rip roaring at the moment.

 

[Raj]

My self hatred is daily (lately) and I break it by literally smacking my fist into my head. This just great for a person that already has a head injury, now isn't it! Why is it I would rather deal with the physical pain, instead of the emotional? I have scars all over my body from digging holes in it too, I can't overcome bureaucracy or my own disabilities to work, so what value do I have, none it seems. I even specifically hate one of my arms (hard to use compared to "normal man)". I think I hate my PTSD less than myself!

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Self-hate...SO destructive...lurking...waiting to jump into our minds. Then, from our minds into action.

I'm trying my best to keep calm about a new, sad, development. Don't want the self-hate to kick in, trying SO hard to remember I have no control over most situations. If I can stay calm, just maybe, I won't hit.

 

[ms spock]

It is hard to live with self hatred. I find it very hard.

 

[Abstract]

Its truly awful Ms Spock. I am sorry it is so bad at present.

 

[ms spock]

It is truly awful Abstract. I am finding it hard.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Today, I got a call that calmed my fears of sadness to come...it's all worked out and I stayed calm! YAY!

 

[ms spock]

The self hatred is prominent.

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((Ms Spock)))))

Sending wishes for comfort and rest your way. That is just a feeling, and you've been through worse. This will pass. In the meantime, keep speaking gently with yourself.