So Here I Am

[bob fawcett]

Nope in BC Canada

 

[Philippa]

Nice.
My mother is from Canada. Oh you did say you were from Whistler...see how bad my memory is? I never know if that;s from PTSD or just getting older...(plus some braincells were 'culled' during xmas celebrations)

nope in bc canada

 

[bob fawcett]

Agreed on the xmas brain cell cull. Still going strong actually. Must be late for you?

 

[Philippa]

agreed on the xmas brain cell cull. still going strong actually. Must be late for you?

Well it's the middle of the day here, so not late. I've recovered from my binge though...apparently my memory hasn't

 

[bob fawcett]

Are you ok? I see on your diary something fairly major has happened?

 

[Philippa]

are you ok? i see on your diary something fairly major has happened?

I'm feeling a bit better now. I took some emergency flower essence drops to help with panic and fear...and got some sun. I've decided not to look at the reply message. It' wasn't part of the plan, I just didn't realize that facebook makes you wait 48 hours til you can re-block someone that you temporarily unblocked to send a message telling him that i've told the police what he did and a mutual friend.

He doesn't know where I live and the only person who does is out of town and wouldn't tell him anyway, as she's the mutual friend, and she's on my side.

Thanks for your concern though.

I'll be ok. Maybe I'll stay at a friends place tonight just so I'm not alone?

 

[bob fawcett]

I dunno. Is he really that freaky? Poor you, that is not a pleasant situation. Wish I could give you some advice on what to do. If it would make you feel safe and the friend is a good person than maybe you should. I have not had to deal with such a thing. I am just haunted......

 

[Philippa]

I decided to look at his message, and as I wrote in my diary, his response was unexpected. He said he was sorry I felt that way and that he would respect my space if our paths crossed at the festival (which I'm not going to), and he would also be open to healing the issue if I wanted to...and said I was in complete control.

Definately wasn't what I expected. I feel relieved and reassured...though a part of me is a bit paranoid that he is just lulling me into a sense of false security?

It appears that he isn't that freaky...

 

[bob fawcett]

He's just another stupid male. God made a lot of them. Senseless and unable to accept responsibility for any action they make. I am not a big fan of my kind.....

 

[Philippa]

he's just another stupid male. God made a lot of them. senseless and unable to accept responsibility for any action they make. i am not a big fan of my kind.....

Thanks for saying. I think it's just people in general. People are stupid. Men are pretty stupid at times though;)

 

[bob fawcett]

People are, but men are just f--cked. It's truly unreal how simple the male race is for the most part. Some of us have some depth, but holy cow there are some special units out there.

Can I ask you what brought all this on for you? This is my real name too by the way

 

[Philippa]

people are, but men are just f--cked. it's truly unreal how simple the male race is for the most part. some of us have some depth, but holy cow there are some special units out there. can I ask you what brought all this on for you? This is my real name too by the way

Are you talking about PTSD in general, or the thing with this particular person I just had a panic attack about?