hello looki. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. you are quite far from alone, whether you choose to acknowledge your fellow travelers, or knot.
congratulations on finding the courage to take those first hard steps toward recovery. i took the first steps to my own recovery in 1972 when combat ptsd was still being called, "shell shock." i have no regrets about the psychotherapy i worked under a smorgasbord of misdiagnosis until the cPTSD theories formalized in the late 90's. the tools i learned in that therapy still work when i work them, but girl howdy, having words for ^it^ makes a world of diff.
hope it helps you, too, along with the fellowship of your fellow travelers on the healing journey.
welcome aboard.