I understand. I want to work. Those are good goals. SSDI has a program where you can have a trial of work for 11 months. The months don't have to be consecutive. You don't get your SSDI while you work, but you are still in the system, so you can go back to SSDI if it doesn't work out. I have been wanting to do this but I have just about reached early retirement age, so combined with the fact I can't handle the stress of work it doesn't make sense to me. I don't think SSDI is a part of anyone's goals and dreams. I know the general public thinks many people on it are lazy and could work, but that simply isn't true. I never had to have an appointment, since I had a many hospitalizations over 2 years, suicide attempts and lots of paperwork describing it. I hope you get on it and never give up on your dreams.