Somatic Flashbacks

[Maggiemay]

Ooooouch!! Worst somatic flashback in a looong time... It hurts so much. Hate them as I can't control them. Hasn't been this bad in ages. I just want it to stop. Feel like I'm being punished... Feel so dirty... so painful :'( I've had a positive couple of days so why is this happening???????!!!!?? :'( :'( :'(

 

[Echo]

So sorry, @Maggiemay, that you're struggling like this. I hate them, too; they can be so intense. And all the emotions that come up with them. Hope things are better for you today.

 

[ms spock]

@Maggiemay it is really hard.

Do you have a professional that can help you on some self soothing and grounding techniques?

Kindness and compassion towards yourself can be good things to slowly over time cultivate towards yourself.

 

[Maggiemay]

Thanks guys :) Seem to have settled, for now at least...

 

[Ed Norton]

I too have experienced severe physical pain and breathing problems when I had flashback.So I know how you feel, sometimes flashbacks go into remission I hope that yours do. You are not alone.I am glad you are feeling better.

 

[Maggiemay]

Thanks Ed :)

I find them so much harder to manage than normal visual/auditory flashbacks.I did have some respite from them over the last year, but now seem to be returning more regularly...

They were excruciating yesterday - felt like someone/something was inside me. I need to explore further as all my flashbacks usually help undo the amnesia I had after the abuse & give me bits of the jigsaw puzzle... I thought it was only touch but now current somatic memories are showing it May have been more...