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LOL, ya lost me after that. I'm not the sharpest tool in the toolbox.:roflmao: And, I'm totally okay with it, and don't consider it a problem.
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I will add this to my arsenal of grounding techniques. Trigger symptoms beware.:D. Thank Angel
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Yes, it only works by covering your left eye.
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Oh, BTW, if people are around, they might think you are weird...wearing an eyepatch. But, weird is okay too. The best time for me to do my 'therapy' is in the morning while I do my workout. It sure makes time go fast by the time you have to concentrate on not falling, and counting reps. :roflmao:
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Dear AngelKeeperJ:
I discovered this on my own or with the help of my autoimmune disorders, my career, and my abusive and extremely loud mother and brother. It does really work and got me through many 16 hour work days when I was in full panic mode upon arrival.
In brief, I get autoimmune connuctivitis more chronically and predominantly in my left eye. So I naturally had a propensity for taping it closed while self-treating it at an early age. When at work as a Control Systems Engineer, designing systems to sterilize heart catheters or isolation airlock chambers for John Hopkins Cancer Facilities, I couldn't find a way to "settle" to look at the blueprints, design the controls, program the software, or even read memos/emails...and would often run to the dark and isolated area of the shipping/receiving bay. However, when I held my left hand over my left eye (later just taped it shut), I became less overwhelmed and was better able to "see and concentrate". And even my legs that continuously ran a marathon, would slow down. Then intensity of my emotions lessened and I was more productive...a blessing for someone whose work "held" so many lives in it's hands.
I agree that in general, one should not move around, but I had no choice. I worked on high end and high rise and large scale projects. I also worked up on the masts of navy vessels, mostly aircraft carriers. I am very visual, but I was petrified to go to any contrustion site or overhauled ship, especially the larger and more complex ones that were in a constant state of change. The panic and abundance of visual and auditory triggers made me freeze, dissociate, and narrowed my field of awareness to less than about 18" around me. Also I was less able to process what was being said to me. Not good and certainly unsafe in all regards, and it made me seek out the nearest corner support to stand against. However, as the only female engineering supervisor among a construction site of men, some accepting some not so much, I was always trying to "cover" or hide my symptoms, terror, and distortions. However, I inadverantly found out that covering my left eye (black insert in shade-like safety glasses) enabled me to intellectually "overlay" the visual blueprints stored in my mind to where I was standing, which expanded my visual awareness and I made me feel less terrified and literally lost on site. I also found out that using one earplug in my left ear allowed me to hear more of what I needed and less of what I didn't. The combined effect was dramatic and a blessing for me. I still froze, was far to exhausted and stress, but able to function where I previously could not - and most bearly even noticed, which made working in that environment a lot better for me.
What I failed to realize until some years later is that I was employing the some of the same defenses I had used with my relentlessly abusive mother and brother. I believe (and former T agreed) that "gave up the left side of my body" for their verbal lashings and physical beatings, because I "sonehow knew" that if I was to survive, I needed to protect as best I could the right side of me. Since they rarely hit me square in the face (marks visible to the world), I would let them beat on my body but face the right side of my face away from them, close my left eye, and cover or shove something in my left ear. This way I believe I emotionally "heard and saw" (or took in) less of their abuse, while keeping my right eye and ear "open" for warnings and opportunities to keep me as safe as possible. As a sidebar, I would keep two river rocks in my right pocket to "keep my left brain active" and tuned in. Of course, it wasn't a "perfect plan" since that left hemisphere that I so needed was exposed for much of the time. But when those lashings and beatings would go on for hours at a time, with many rounds (like a boxing match), I think part of me just knew that I needed to shutdown those left side senses while not allowing myself to shutdown the right ones completely (not the same at all for the sexual abuse). And I think it did "save" me - if this is saved?!?
Sorry for the long post, but as the old book title goes "all I ever needed to know, Iearned in (or before) Kindergarden." I believe that in some ways I was smarter then, than I am now. I knew what I needed then, yet seem so clueless now.
Anyhow, be it a dark room, an eye patch, repetitive movements that dull touch, or an earplug, anything that does lower the overstimulization felt by the left sensory inputs while keeping the right ones alert, will soothe the right emtotional hemisphere while enabling the left hemisphere to operate more effectively.
Hope this is helpful to at least some of you. And thank Angel for making me think about this again. Perhaps I can employs some of those same tactics now when too overstressed and distressed in the hospital.
Humbly stated and submitted,
Alex
I discovered this on my own or with the help of my autoimmune disorders, my career, and my abusive and extremely loud mother and brother. It does really work and got me through many 16 hour work days when I was in full panic mode upon arrival.
In brief, I get autoimmune connuctivitis more chronically and predominantly in my left eye. So I naturally had a propensity for taping it closed while self-treating it at an early age. When at work as a Control Systems Engineer, designing systems to sterilize heart catheters or isolation airlock chambers for John Hopkins Cancer Facilities, I couldn't find a way to "settle" to look at the blueprints, design the controls, program the software, or even read memos/emails...and would often run to the dark and isolated area of the shipping/receiving bay. However, when I held my left hand over my left eye (later just taped it shut), I became less overwhelmed and was better able to "see and concentrate". And even my legs that continuously ran a marathon, would slow down. Then intensity of my emotions lessened and I was more productive...a blessing for someone whose work "held" so many lives in it's hands.
I agree that in general, one should not move around, but I had no choice. I worked on high end and high rise and large scale projects. I also worked up on the masts of navy vessels, mostly aircraft carriers. I am very visual, but I was petrified to go to any contrustion site or overhauled ship, especially the larger and more complex ones that were in a constant state of change. The panic and abundance of visual and auditory triggers made me freeze, dissociate, and narrowed my field of awareness to less than about 18" around me. Also I was less able to process what was being said to me. Not good and certainly unsafe in all regards, and it made me seek out the nearest corner support to stand against. However, as the only female engineering supervisor among a construction site of men, some accepting some not so much, I was always trying to "cover" or hide my symptoms, terror, and distortions. However, I inadverantly found out that covering my left eye (black insert in shade-like safety glasses) enabled me to intellectually "overlay" the visual blueprints stored in my mind to where I was standing, which expanded my visual awareness and I made me feel less terrified and literally lost on site. I also found out that using one earplug in my left ear allowed me to hear more of what I needed and less of what I didn't. The combined effect was dramatic and a blessing for me. I still froze, was far to exhausted and stress, but able to function where I previously could not - and most bearly even noticed, which made working in that environment a lot better for me.
What I failed to realize until some years later is that I was employing the some of the same defenses I had used with my relentlessly abusive mother and brother. I believe (and former T agreed) that "gave up the left side of my body" for their verbal lashings and physical beatings, because I "sonehow knew" that if I was to survive, I needed to protect as best I could the right side of me. Since they rarely hit me square in the face (marks visible to the world), I would let them beat on my body but face the right side of my face away from them, close my left eye, and cover or shove something in my left ear. This way I believe I emotionally "heard and saw" (or took in) less of their abuse, while keeping my right eye and ear "open" for warnings and opportunities to keep me as safe as possible. As a sidebar, I would keep two river rocks in my right pocket to "keep my left brain active" and tuned in. Of course, it wasn't a "perfect plan" since that left hemisphere that I so needed was exposed for much of the time. But when those lashings and beatings would go on for hours at a time, with many rounds (like a boxing match), I think part of me just knew that I needed to shutdown those left side senses while not allowing myself to shutdown the right ones completely (not the same at all for the sexual abuse). And I think it did "save" me - if this is saved?!?
Sorry for the long post, but as the old book title goes "all I ever needed to know, Iearned in (or before) Kindergarden." I believe that in some ways I was smarter then, than I am now. I knew what I needed then, yet seem so clueless now.
Anyhow, be it a dark room, an eye patch, repetitive movements that dull touch, or an earplug, anything that does lower the overstimulization felt by the left sensory inputs while keeping the right ones alert, will soothe the right emtotional hemisphere while enabling the left hemisphere to operate more effectively.
Hope this is helpful to at least some of you. And thank Angel for making me think about this again. Perhaps I can employs some of those same tactics now when too overstressed and distressed in the hospital.
Humbly stated and submitted,
Alex
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I must apologize for the abundance of typos in the above. I hate posting from a small handheld device, but it is all that I have in here.
:) Ironically it kind of makes my point, that my right brain is interfering with the normal abilities of my left brain! :)
Thinking of all of you when offline,
Alex
:) Ironically it kind of makes my point, that my right brain is interfering with the normal abilities of my left brain! :)
Thinking of all of you when offline,
Alex
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Thank you for sharing this. I have not found anything that works and have been beconing very depressed. Even a little bit of hope helps!
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(((Alex)))Thank you! I know it had to take a long time on your lil keyboard. I don't have that kind of patience.
I'm so happy to hear that someone else has had success with this 'trick'. I'll respond more later....heading out already.
I'm so happy to hear that someone else has had success with this 'trick'. I'll respond more later....heading out already.
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