Childhood Sometimes I wonder if the power of suggestion could cause PTSD, but then I look back and think “that can’t be possible”…

[Luna_Moth]

I wonder if I have sexual trauma because my mom might have suggested I was SA’d. She brought up how Satanic Ritual Abuse is a thing when I was 5 and I don’t know if she mentioned sexual abuse to me or not as it was so long ago. A lot of supposed SA is included in that.

Last time I regressed was when an occultist showed interest in me. That triggered me into age regression even though he would have never laid a finger on me.

I don’t see however that pure suggestion alone could cause somatic flashbacks and body memories.

Plus my mother accused me of having false memories implanted in my head, by a psychodynamic therapist, years before I realized I had trauma. I also never mentioned any memories to her. She would not bring this up solely because of her mentioning SRA to me because she saw nothing wrong with it. So I don’t know if it’s religious trauma or actual CSA that may have happened or if it’s a combination of the two.

I’ve had symptoms of developmental trauma and of nightmares before she even brought that up. Nightmares would include being kidnapped and/or taken to strange places by random people or of being chased before I would wake up in terror. Symptoms included that of wetting the bed until I was 7, avoiding things that “reminded” me of trauma (I had no memory of anything traumatic so I went by feelings), and being triggered by loud sudden noises (my fight or flight response would kick in when there was a fire truck demonstration. The loud noise caused me to run away in fear. I had a teacher try to force me back and I ended up getting violent with her), violence with other children, developmental delays including that of language processing, and dissociation.

I was also put through Somatic therapy as a young child, but my parents still deny I had any trauma. This was when my father confessed that to a therapist of mine. I just don’t understand why I would be put through that if they didn’t believe I had trauma in the first place.

Sometimes I’ll look back and wonder how healing from C-PTSD is possible if your trauma started at such a young age.

 

[arfie]

there are theories that ptsd is the number one cause of ptsd. within that debate is another debate i have heard called, "secondary ptsd." my eldest son --now a 45 year old homeless crackhead-- never experienced serious physical trauma in his childhood that i am aware of, but he started exhibiting symptoms in adolescence and those symptoms have escalated wildly in the 30 odd years since. i wonder often if he is suffering secondary ptsd.

just wondering. . .

back to assuming a 45 year old man has reached the age of personal responsibility. we have been estranged since 2017.

 

[Luna_Moth]

there are theories that ptsd is the number one cause of ptsd. within that debate is another debate i have heard called, "secondary ptsd."

That doesn’t surprise me, but my mother doesn’t have PTSD. She’s a narcissist with actual symptoms of NPD and parentified me by sharing her childish fears instead doing her due diligence of researching the validity of SRA claims. She got her ideas from media and from books with unsubstantiated evidence. Then decided that it would be a good idea to share those fears with a preschooler.

I would not be surprised if she read Michelle Remembers and believed it all to be true. Ironically she accused me of false memories, yet doesn’t believe that false memories can’t happen with SRA.

She is a hypocrite who needs to look within herself and a walking contradiction who needs to stay far away from small children.

my eldest son --now a 45 year old homeless crackhead-- never experienced serious physical trauma in his childhood that i am aware of, but he started exhibiting symptoms in adolescence and those symptoms have escalated wildly in the 30 odd years since. i wonder often if he is suffering secondary ptsd.

just wondering. . .

back to assuming a 45 year old man has reached the age of personal responsibility. we have been estranged since 2017.

I am sorry this has been your experience with your son. Hopefully one day you two could reconcile and work through things together.