Spilling my Beans

woodsy1

MyPTSD Pro
Hi Woodsy! Welcome to the forums!
Hello @Deanna. Thank you! It's good to have folks to chat with.
There are some really knowledgeable people on here, that check-in from time to time. Or is that, time after time!!! Lol!!! I personally have had PTSD all my life with a late diagnosis. I was pissed in a way because i felt like my life was a lie.. Not knowing. I'm in my 50's as well. I've been going through this thing lately where I don't talk much..
It sucks feeling like your whole life was a lie. I have gone through a lot of that before finally settling on just being who I am now. Can't change the past. Doesn't do me any good to broid about it. I have to move on.

Maybe we go in phases of talking more or less? Sometimes I seem to benefit by talking. Other times talking, and everything else seems useless. Those are white-knuckling it times for me. Gotta get through to the next "better" time.
At my work ( self) people have no clue.. Totally a different person. Down to earth.. Loving ( which I am in off time) but for me meds have been my friend. I just take a few. I have chronic insomnia which I take meds for and go to counseling ( which for me.. She's a chatterbox and i know its her job) but she did get my attention the other day when she said she had a client that committed suicide. Um.. Personally I don't think she was being honest about that but hey.. Therapy doesn't help everyone but it is what you make it
Exactly, we get out of therapy what we put into it, I think. I enjoy therapy even if it's only to have someone to talk with.
I'm sorry you shake. I'd go to a medical doc for that. I did with my insomnia.
Yeah, the severe shaking isn't often. And the daily trembling has subsided. The docs won't do anything. Or they'll give me more meds I don't want or won't be able to take.

From what I am gathering, the shaking is just part n parcel with anxiety and PTSD. I can live with it for now.
It's good to meet you and I'm sure I'll inter-react better ( or I hope I will) in the immediate future. Here's a pic of my 🐱.
Thanks for reaching out. It is good to meet you. Cute kitty!

Here's my lil doggie.🐕
 

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woodsy1

MyPTSD Pro
Well, it's been a high PTSD symptoms day.

Ugh!

No, really. Ugh!

Shakey. Tense doesn't sound severe enough. Hurting, muscle and bone. Trying to keep my mood up. Fatigued. Cloudy and disorganized thoughts. Can't relax or feel comfortable.

That kind of ugh!

Had a fairly good day yesterday. May have pushed too hard moving furniture. Felt ok at the time.

Anyhow. That's all for now.
 

RussellSue

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May have pushed too hard moving furniture. Felt ok at the time.
I think you must have entered my world. Or maybe this is life after 40? I don't know.

For me, physical fatigue and/or pain makes my whole world suck. Maybe you should stretch, take a hot bath or shower, or take something for pain if you are having any? As always, there is the exercise option. It seems counterintuitive since you are already feeling fatigued but movement relieves pain and fatigue in a lot of situations. That's one reason why I dance pretty much daily even though I'm a physical wreck. The days that I don't, I feel like I might just shrivel up and die on both emotional and physical levels.

I hope you feel better soon.
 
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woodsy1

MyPTSD Pro
I think you must have entered my world. Or maybe this is life after 40? I don't know.
Lol. I think you are on to something here. I'm rapidly rolling up on 50!
For me, physical fatigue and/or pain makes my whole world suck. Maybe you should stretch, take a hot bath or shower, or take something for pain if you are having any? As always, there is the exercise option. It seems counterintuitive since you are already feeling fatigued but movement relieves pain and fatigue in a lot of situations. That's one reason why I dance pretty much daily even though I'm a physical wreck. The days that I don't, I feel like I might just shrivel up and die on both emotional and physical levels.
Yeah, I try to walk or do exercise in the house most every day. Once I'm highly symptomatic though, not much helps. Just get through it to the next, hopefully better, day.
I hope you feel better soon.
Thanks. I am feeling better today than yesterday. 🤠
 

AnnieMae

MyPTSD Pro
Once I get to talking though, I dead end. It seems so useless to just keep whining about what I'm experiencing. Then I feel like it's no use to keep talking about the same symptoms over and over again.
I totally feel this way. Like talking about it doesn’t change anything for me. If only I could “do” something, but then I get overwhelmed. 🤨
 

woodsy1

MyPTSD Pro
I totally feel this way. Like talking about it doesn’t change anything for me. If only I could “do” something, but then I get overwhelmed. 🤨
I hear you. I'm figuring out what works for me to get me through each day. I am even finding some peaceable, almost enjoyable moments. I'm not talking about my stuff as much. Thinking about it as little s possible. Life is functional enough for me this way.

Here's hoping that you find what works for you. 🤞
 
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