Other SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse) abuse?

[lostforgottensoul]

I grew up in a cult with an entire belief system, rituals, programming, punishement which was quite literally torture. And the rituals were what "god" told my step father. Killing animals and having sex with animals. Headed by my step father and mother.

So, yeah.

 

[ChildofGod]

I had so much stuff " tied to the occult " in my things. I'm purging and blessing anything unholy, destroying it and saying prayers with it.

Ten million photos, notes, empty cards, postcards, envelopes, ect...
All books and photos and toys and anything else (clothes, all of my CD and movies and books, jewelry ect.) that has brought me pain is also gone.

I feel so much better. I can fall asleep now without my medication.

I don't worry about the past or question why things happened.

I feel more free and I am enjoying life, the good, the bad and in between.

I realized that I don't need to hold onto these items. Especially if they only bring me pain and suffering/bad feelings/emotions ect? (I asked Jesus to help me to see the signs and he did. Many I figured out on my own. Certain colors, symbols, holidays, ect.)

I finally have clarity and freedom.

(I can't delete or edit anyone else's comments, I can only edit mine. I can't see certain posts when I'm logged in.)

 

[mumstheword]

I am a bit the same, re occult connections and my upbringing was not the same, more "hippy" with overtones of occultism and leftism via my mother and the ephebophile who ensnared me for many years. I look at mainstream media/movies/music and such and cringe in revulsion and I reject so much of it.
I think nuance is ok though. Many Christians, for instance, denounce astrology, but when you read the bible, astrology is critical to the Christ birth story. Other people throw out Christianity because of abuse within the churches and institutions. That's anyone's prerogative and yet, eventually, we can move beyond blanket judgements and realise there are "evil" (loaded term, I know, but I stick by it) people within every culture and sub culture and it's more the intent and actions of individuals that counts, rather than any and everything that reminds us of the abuse.
Having said that satanism is a real thing and I disavow anything to do with any of it.
It's a deep rabbit hole.
I recite the Lord's Prayer every day and I find it very comforting, but I'm too scared to attend church as I don't feel comfortable with anything remotely culty.
I used to be very into "new ageism" but upon learning of the Satanist/Luciferian connection, I am now very critical of much of it, but again, it's not blanket judgement, but I do tend to err on the side of what's biblically aligned, without being any kind of "fanatical" self righteous Christian.
Healing is a long winded process.
And it's up to you what you reject and what you align with.
I live in a drug infested "hippy" community and because I had a life of abuse with it, I reject most of what that is, but I can't disentangle from all of it, just the values and premises, and well, most everything but the nature connection and my eclectic taste in clothing, just like how I detest immoral media and I see evidence of, for instance, a lot of hollywood and big name musical artists show off a lot of occult/Satanic symbolism, and themes. Yuck. So vile. I can't watch hollywood anymore, for the most part, nor listen to popular music or music videos.
So I get it, I really do.
Best wishes and sending prayers and well.wishes for your healing @Gentle Blue Sea

 

[ChildofGod]

Thank you for your kind and courageous response. I agree with much of what you said. There is much that I can see now, that I couldn't have before. I finally have clarity.

I can't believe how much I avoid now, but I am glad to. I am sorry that you endured that. It can be so ugly. (The occult, at least for me.)

Sending kind thoughts and well wishes and I hope that you have a wonderful day or night.

Take care,

Gentle Blue Sea

 

[ChildofGod]

@lostforgottensoul-
I am truly sorry for everything you've had to endure. I hope you are healing from your past.

 

[The Albatross]

A friend of mine online was a victim of satanic ritual abuse (and her brother). I have know another since then. It is quite a struggle... more so than other cults.

 

[ChildofGod]

@The Albatross, I am sorry to hear that. It is horrendous. I hope they are healing. I had no idea that my own mother and my family and my best friend are into this garbage. Not only are they into it, but into it deeply.

 

[The Albatross]

One "chose" to become a rather radical jewess… the other still struggles with the religious connotations of the abuse and flutters between eastern and secular. Both though are functionally well and have families. Just illustrating the embracing of faith by one and the rejection of it by the other. The depth of the abuse is hard and can be long lasting. But know this, k? Seeking to clarify/recover/understand/distill down the nature of the abuse is right where the best place is for you to be. Been away a couple weeks... if you start a diary you may want to do it in either members or private. But with private you don't get feedback.

 

[ChildofGod]

My mother has happily controlled my life for all of my childhood. And a lot of my adult life too. This is where I demand and reclaim my power back.

I didn't know this thread is trending. Thank you for your great advice and support.

 

[The Albatross]

You may want to start a diary under members forum for your process. Social stuff is searchable depending on whether or not security is an issue. My two friends were SRA before I even knew I had PTSD. I am fortunate to them both though for sharing and their own struggles.

 

[The Albatross]

Word of disclosure and warning. I am Christian, but not so others that are here. So as you find your footing, be careful whose words you keep. Various influences here (my own included).

If you are influence sensitive, do your research on those members here.

 

[ChildofGod]

@The Albatross
Thank you, no warning needed. I am aware of the differences. Great advice!! Social media may be searchable, but I don't believe the people I know will harass me. I can get restraining orders if needed. I don't have anything that they covet anymore.

Thank you, I see what you are saying though.