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[Marc St-Louis]

Hey,
My wife turned me onto this site and ask me to check out other avenues to help me cope readapting to civilian life. She is one smart cookie and the Love of My Life. Without her, I would be completly f*cked. Anyway, here I am, 32 years of service in the Canadian Forces and still on active duty but, placed within a holding unit awaiting my retirement. My battle scars and trophies 17 combat tours and countless drop supports (that's the last time that I will mention my scars and trophies). I was diagnosed with severe PTSD 2 yrs ago and have been in therapy ever since. I am, in my eyes, worse off than ever before my PTSD diagnosis... I have been reading a lot of the forums and it seems that I can relate to most of you.
I have 32yrs plus of "Sucking it up and Soldering on" to work through and the blood on my hands that has dyed into my skin; doesn't wash... I am not looking for empathy, just some hardened ears to let this old warrior scream his battle cries. I now suffer from nightly; horrish, nightmares, I sleep roughly 3-4hrs a day, I have had a constant and daily headache for the last year that erupts into migraines about 10-15 times a month and, every week my body give me a new ache. As well, I have 3 civilian therapists working for the military running me through the paces of PTSD EMDR.
Well, there you have it in a nutshell, my f*cking problem.

 

[JennyMac]

Welcome fellow Canadian...glad to see you have found this place. I am in jpsu as well...waiting until...well just waiting.

Cheers.

 

[nomedic1]

Welcome

 

[Ned]

Morning Marc. Sounds familiar.

 

[Jimmy1]

Hey buddy, welcome. Glad you have someone that stuck by you. We will too.

 

[tho9900]

Marc... glad to have you... we are listening and as you can guess there's not much you can say thats gonna burn our ears... good place to vent here...unload, we are listening.... and having a support partner is awesome... it really helps you through the day..

 

[Sarg]

Welcome, Mark. Pull up a chair and join in.

Sarg

 

[Sludge]

Welcome Aboard!

You have come to the right place.

Ain't much empathy around here. We don't need it. No need to empathize with those going through the same thing you are.
What you will find is a community of like minded folks that have a healthy outlet to depressurize through. (And get to partake in rants, raves, screaming and sleeplessness right along with the rest of us...also witty sarcasm and the occasional extremely humorous lashing of all non-hackers...see the recent hypnosis thread as an example of the gang here in action).

Sometimes, we even offer advice to each other too.

 

[Tim Cake]

(y)Welcome from another old fart "lifer."

 

[Zipperhead]

Afternoon. Another Canadian joins the dysfunctional family.

 

[reddevil1111]

Welcome.
I face the same problem with nightmares. I sleep for 20 minutes wake due to the nightmares and then fall asleep in another 15-20 min. This is my regular sleep cycle. I manage 5-6 times per night and then I am done. I also have chronic pain that helps keep me up.
I just wanted to let you know you aren't alone with the sleep issues.
I would love to know how you feel about the EMDR treatments. I am under pressure to try it but I think it could open me up for even more issues, I remain undecided what to do.
Semper Fi, Dan

 

[Anglesachse]

Sorry your here, glad you are if you know what I mean.


Love the straight laced honesty, I can realy live with that. I can see it putting a few noses out of joint which is going to be hillarious to watch.

Pull up a chair and rest you bones, read as you can, post as you want and rant as you must.