Stalled - Best Friend Died of Drugs in my Arms

[Ksyusha]

Hi, my forum name is Ksyusha, my best friend died a year ago in my arms in my car (drug related death). I'm not ready to share this story but has definitely led to some PTSD /Depression. Ever since this I havn't been able to stay in school or get a job. Its been a year now but I just stopped trying and now I have no motivation to start again. Maybe this is the wrong forum because it might be more depression, but it all started with his death. Some of my friends were very supportive for many months but by now, they are sick of my imobility. I was in the psychiatric ward last spring and I almost feel like I should go back because my life still hasn't really started back. At the same time, I dont even want to get better, I just dont want to have to do anything at all. What do you think about this?
Ksyusha

 

[Mina]

Welcome to the forum, Ksyusha. I'm sorry to read what you've been through. A few questions...

Were you diagnosed with PTSD before/during your time in the psychiatric ward? Do you feel your time there was beneficial? Have you been in therapy or had any treatment since then? What have you done to help yourself progress?

This is just my opinion and I'm no expert, but perhaps your lack of desire to improve is having a big impact on your life not starting back. If you have PTSD, there is really nothing anyone else can do to heal you and get your life back on track - it's up to you. Doctors and therapists and psych treatment can provide you with the tools you need, but it's up to you to use them. No one else can do it for you. Unfortunately, the only way out is by working through the trauma and healing it. Your life can't 'start back' when PTSD is still running it. It's hard work for sure, and life doesn't look like it did before the trauma, but it's definitely way better than when PTSD was unchecked.

Hopefully you will find much support and help here, and that the forum will come to aid you in your healing...I truly hope you come to desire to get better!

 

[patrick]

Mina said it as well as it could be said. Welcome to the forum, Ksyusha. Hope to see you again.

Pat

 

[Perdido]

Best of luck to you as you work through the issues you face.

Perdido