Structural Dissociation And 'chatter' And Subsequent Answer

[Chimera]

@Junebug what does staying mean to you?

 

[Tinyflame]

• @Chimera do you mean how is it painful? :confused:

:hug: s sorry can't remove bullet. (-that too lol).

 

[Chimera]

@Junebug although I cannot truly understand your own unique pain. I do have some idea how awful it is.
And I don't know if I've ever thought of staying and fighting this disease as a form of self abuse...but I have to believe that there will be times in my life where I know joy again...
Honestly, all the desires; empowerment, functionality, normality- (wtf IS that?) that ptsd makes us crave, they pale in comparison to feeling a bit of joy. And sometimes, here, I catches glimpses again, excites the hell out of me. I see it and I can't ask for much more, so I'm seeking joy.
I might never have an abundance but I'll be damned if my past is going to strip away that last vital thing...so junebug, no. Staying and searching are not forms of self abuse they are examples of the spark inside you that won't be extinguished.