Sufferer Struggling with connection. abusive mom & sexually explorative older brother.

[Aideun32]

Hello, i am a 19 year old man who has lost my entirety of childhood memories.. I grew up in a household with a an abusive mother and a sexually exploitative older brother. I was abused multiple times, i was hit, overtaken, molested and raped. I had always struggled with connecting with others and making sense of the terrible things i was feeling, i lived in fear closed off to most of those around me for a majority of my life. I took it upon myself to feel ashamed due to the things i would try to find on the internet to validate these intrusive feelings and thoughts i had of rape and violence. I have tried to work on myself, but these are feelings i feel i cannot completely shove down.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome!

 

[ladee]

Welcome ! And as much help and support you will get here, it is always wise to get a therapist who knows about trauma... kudos to you for working so hard on your self.... maybe now it's just time to add to your team.. we are here for you... and will support you... but a T really helps with the hard stuff. Glad you found us, but sorry for what brought you here.... hope to see you around...

 

[Deadman]

Welcome @Aideun32

 

[Esterio]

hi there Aideun32 welcome to this community. You have come to place where there are others that can relate to you and your trauma's. Lots of good people to share with and support or be supported as need be. I am sorry for what brought you here. I am glad that you came. I look forward to continue our conversations.
Peace be safe