Struggling

[sapphire]

finding the courage to post is tough,
a troubled abusive childhood, with the on going trauma of being stalked has left me just wanting to hide.

been lucky enough for the last four years to have had amazing support from therapist, took a long while to trust, events recently his affirming reaction - finally the trust was there within two weeks he had for personal reasons decided he needed to take a sabbatical and informed me that as of the new year he would no longer be practising.

I fully respect his decision and spent the last few weeks of 2016 adjusting to the new circumstances - just don't have the courage to start over with anyone else- thought i had found some acceptance of the situation, realising that i am beginning to truly struggle, no one to share events with, to get that different perspective, just so scared

 

[MisterCatLady]

Could you ask for a referral to another therapist that he professionally trusts? I would recommend continuing therapy. When you find one you're comfortable with, you can sign for them to retrieve your file from your previous therapist. That way you wouldn't be starting from scratch. When I stopped seeing my last therapist, I felt completely gutted. I felt myself slipping into an episode so while i still had my wits about me, I made an appointment with someone new and it was the best change I could've made.

 

[DharmaGirl]

It is hard to leave a good therapist, or rather, have them leave you. I have been looking for a new one for a couple of years, I thought I found one, but no, I have an appointment with a new one next week. I do understand your feelings about not wanting to continue, but maybe in a few weeks you will feel differently.

 

[sapphire]

thank you for taking the time to reply

MisterCatLady referral on was discussed, I thought I should try going alone,just not as strong as i ought to be, thankyou for your understanding response - just feels so weak, but i have the option to contact original therapist for the referral. its early days so deep breath will hold off for a while longer I think.

Dharmagirl sorry you find yourself in a similar position, its all a little fresh at the moment and probably should just sit with it for a while