Hey Shogun
I'm an 0311. But you know you do what ever you had to do.
I'm sorry for your friend, those kinds of things make me very sad. But yet I can understand as I've been there at that point myself. Sometimes you don't know why it is that they make that choice and you don't.
That sense of 'loneliness' follows you and even now after all these years I can still feel it. But you do have to try and move forward. I always think that if you can make it through boot camp, the O course, drill, the range, D.I.'s, and all the tours that ya'll do these days you've definately got 'the right stuff' to improve your condition of PTSD. It's not easy but then what is there that's worthwhile that is. Everyday is another chance.
Jar