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JadedGhost13
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@torturedsoul7402 I have heard that rabbits are smart! What kind is yours? A rabbit would be a really cool pet to have for sure. I bet its awesome to cuddle up with him.
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JadedGhost13
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I am not a MORNING PERSON.... I curse the morning and today is no different. I pretty much have a full agenda today of things I must do, and had them perfectly timed as to not clash with each other. This morning was not typical at all to say the least. Last night I had everything laid out for the day except ONE thing.... A check for my husband to pay at the dentist office this morning because his country dentist does not accept a card, they are old school, cash or check only.
I was trying to rest, the keyword there "trying". You see my husband is a early bird and when I ay early bird, this man hears his alarm, he comes straight of the bed and starts talking the minute he is awake. I myself am one of those "Don't talk to me until I have had a pot of coffee" people. So he was irritating me and I explained that I had a baby sitting job this afternoon to please let me rest until he returned from the dentist.
When I heard him leave the house I texted his phone before he got out of the drive to tell him I forgot to give him a check and there was one hidden in my car, just use that one. Well he reads the first part, not the part where there was a check. He come back to the top of the drive, jumps out of the car with it running and then claims my car locked itself when he got out. My car has NEVER done that, he had to have hit the lock or something. It took me 10 minutes to get him to admit that he hit the heated seat... only I believe he hit the lock which is the button right at the heater button. He still will not admit fault. No here is the kicker... a few weeks ago he drove my car somewhere and he left it there, then I rode with a friend to the car at a later time. So he had a key and I had a key. He looses things easily, so I normally issue important things like a set of keys to him on a need to have basis.
The set of keys he had were in his rig and he changed rigs last week and I asked him about my keys. He proclaimed over and over that he put them in a bowl on the bar in the kitchen. I looked and looked, no keys. I looked in spare drawers where things sometimes land, no keys. Then he decides to tell me he gave them directly to me, now mind you, I do have brain fog at times but I normally am very careful about things like keys! Eventually I found they set of keys, they were in the console of my car and for some reason I left them in there. That was jut this weekend! And then today he locks us out, with the engine running. It is 32 degrees here so it really did hurt the car to run idle, but then he tells me we cancelled the onstar several months back because it was costing two hundred a year and when we lost my income we cut that out. We had paid for it for 7 years and ever once used it. That's not al... we also had reduced our insurance coverage to save money and one of the things he cut was roadside service because once again, we had never used it.
We called a local glass man and thankfully he pops locks. He was here within a hour and popped the lock without damaging my car in less than two minutes. And it was not expensive at all only $30. Because this ordeal messed up our timeline for the day ten he spazzes out on me and cannot decide to go to the dentist or not. They said they could put him as a work in, and he said he would sit there, but no longer than 30 minutes... Sighhhh...... He does not understand these things. He would be better off to remake the appointment because he was complaining to me that he had to be at work by 2 this afternoon.
Where is Wednesday already? I need rest already! I am stressed because I have a shrink appointment tomorrow and its time to do something different with the medication, so I am a little nervous about that, then also how they are going to react to my meltdown last week, I do no want to go in-patient. I have all that weighing on me, plus my regular responsibilities of which some of them I put off last week because of my meltdown so I already had more on me than normal this week.
ughhhhh............
My positive thought for the day.... I seeded over 200 cells last night so I can start watching the seeds come to life and grow into plants and then into beautiful flowers and veggies. (I grow 100% organic and I used non-hybrid non-gmo seeds) I would like to start 6 more trays of 72 in the next couple of weeks which means I will need at least one more light set up, but that inexpensive so it is possible for me to do if my moods and health allow me to accomplish it.
I was trying to rest, the keyword there "trying". You see my husband is a early bird and when I ay early bird, this man hears his alarm, he comes straight of the bed and starts talking the minute he is awake. I myself am one of those "Don't talk to me until I have had a pot of coffee" people. So he was irritating me and I explained that I had a baby sitting job this afternoon to please let me rest until he returned from the dentist.
When I heard him leave the house I texted his phone before he got out of the drive to tell him I forgot to give him a check and there was one hidden in my car, just use that one. Well he reads the first part, not the part where there was a check. He come back to the top of the drive, jumps out of the car with it running and then claims my car locked itself when he got out. My car has NEVER done that, he had to have hit the lock or something. It took me 10 minutes to get him to admit that he hit the heated seat... only I believe he hit the lock which is the button right at the heater button. He still will not admit fault. No here is the kicker... a few weeks ago he drove my car somewhere and he left it there, then I rode with a friend to the car at a later time. So he had a key and I had a key. He looses things easily, so I normally issue important things like a set of keys to him on a need to have basis.
The set of keys he had were in his rig and he changed rigs last week and I asked him about my keys. He proclaimed over and over that he put them in a bowl on the bar in the kitchen. I looked and looked, no keys. I looked in spare drawers where things sometimes land, no keys. Then he decides to tell me he gave them directly to me, now mind you, I do have brain fog at times but I normally am very careful about things like keys! Eventually I found they set of keys, they were in the console of my car and for some reason I left them in there. That was jut this weekend! And then today he locks us out, with the engine running. It is 32 degrees here so it really did hurt the car to run idle, but then he tells me we cancelled the onstar several months back because it was costing two hundred a year and when we lost my income we cut that out. We had paid for it for 7 years and ever once used it. That's not al... we also had reduced our insurance coverage to save money and one of the things he cut was roadside service because once again, we had never used it.
We called a local glass man and thankfully he pops locks. He was here within a hour and popped the lock without damaging my car in less than two minutes. And it was not expensive at all only $30. Because this ordeal messed up our timeline for the day ten he spazzes out on me and cannot decide to go to the dentist or not. They said they could put him as a work in, and he said he would sit there, but no longer than 30 minutes... Sighhhh...... He does not understand these things. He would be better off to remake the appointment because he was complaining to me that he had to be at work by 2 this afternoon.
Where is Wednesday already? I need rest already! I am stressed because I have a shrink appointment tomorrow and its time to do something different with the medication, so I am a little nervous about that, then also how they are going to react to my meltdown last week, I do no want to go in-patient. I have all that weighing on me, plus my regular responsibilities of which some of them I put off last week because of my meltdown so I already had more on me than normal this week.
ughhhhh............
My positive thought for the day.... I seeded over 200 cells last night so I can start watching the seeds come to life and grow into plants and then into beautiful flowers and veggies. (I grow 100% organic and I used non-hybrid non-gmo seeds) I would like to start 6 more trays of 72 in the next couple of weeks which means I will need at least one more light set up, but that inexpensive so it is possible for me to do if my moods and health allow me to accomplish it.
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JadedGhost13
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Today I was thrown to the wolves so to say. I seem a new psych, and for the life of me I have idea why. But I knew from the moment I stepped back in the back of the office that things were going south. First of all a nurse weighed me on some inflated scales. These scales were showing me 20 pounds heavier than my regular doctors scales and my own personal scales. Then they decided to take my blood pressure, now mind you my blood pressure runs LOW... They decide I am at near stroke level. This was all with a nurse, for what reason I have no idea why.
So then she has me go in to see a psych that I have never met in my life. He DID NOT ask me what the cause of my PTSD was, in fact he asked me what I have, that tells me he was not looking at the damn file in front of him. Then he asks me about meds, once again.. in the file in front of him and then questions my meds, and then tells me I am playing a dangerous game smoking with wellbutrin and tells me I am on a very high dose (300mg is that strong?) He had no idea what mini press is, so I have to tell him what it is and then he starts backing up like all of a sudden he knows what it is. Then he starts in on my weight and this really pissed me off. I informed him I WAS NOT over weight. Then he tried some bull where he says "Where are you from" and then goes on to tell me that where we live, were that fattest state so my weight is a healthy weight. Apparently he is not up to speed.... This state is no longer the fattest state.
I have no idea why, but he asks the other office people to find me a therapist.. I ALREADY have a therapist in THAT office... So once again... he must not have looked at the damn file in front of him.
I am so tired of this meri-go-round that is played in my state. I cannot function well inside or outside of the home, the closest place to me that handles actual PTSD patients is 100 miles away, I cannot drive that far, nor can I afford to drive that far. I have explained all these things to the therapist and one of the goals we spoke of was not only working together in therapy, but also working on my medication, as my meds are given to me by my regular family doctor, and honestly... its a crap shoot. He has never had a patient like me and he gives me pretty much what he gives people who are depressed and come into his office for the exception of the mini press, and I only have that because I spoke to him about it and he agreed to let me try it. But just taking wellbutrin and mini press is not working apparently and I need to find something more tailored to me. We are all different people and different things help different people.
I am really in a rage over all this.
So then she has me go in to see a psych that I have never met in my life. He DID NOT ask me what the cause of my PTSD was, in fact he asked me what I have, that tells me he was not looking at the damn file in front of him. Then he asks me about meds, once again.. in the file in front of him and then questions my meds, and then tells me I am playing a dangerous game smoking with wellbutrin and tells me I am on a very high dose (300mg is that strong?) He had no idea what mini press is, so I have to tell him what it is and then he starts backing up like all of a sudden he knows what it is. Then he starts in on my weight and this really pissed me off. I informed him I WAS NOT over weight. Then he tried some bull where he says "Where are you from" and then goes on to tell me that where we live, were that fattest state so my weight is a healthy weight. Apparently he is not up to speed.... This state is no longer the fattest state.
I have no idea why, but he asks the other office people to find me a therapist.. I ALREADY have a therapist in THAT office... So once again... he must not have looked at the damn file in front of him.
I am so tired of this meri-go-round that is played in my state. I cannot function well inside or outside of the home, the closest place to me that handles actual PTSD patients is 100 miles away, I cannot drive that far, nor can I afford to drive that far. I have explained all these things to the therapist and one of the goals we spoke of was not only working together in therapy, but also working on my medication, as my meds are given to me by my regular family doctor, and honestly... its a crap shoot. He has never had a patient like me and he gives me pretty much what he gives people who are depressed and come into his office for the exception of the mini press, and I only have that because I spoke to him about it and he agreed to let me try it. But just taking wellbutrin and mini press is not working apparently and I need to find something more tailored to me. We are all different people and different things help different people.
I am really in a rage over all this.
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Lazy physicians piss me off too. It's one reason I just stopped seeing them and took things into my own hands.
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JadedGhost13
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Push push push....
My home life has suffered greatly in my times of "shut down" mode. After the meltdown that I had almost two weeks ago and the subsequent period of non-rest in mind body and soul I have had to dig deep to find a way to bring myself out of this and start attacking things that have been neglected. I know for a fact that my house has not been properly cleaned since July when because of the financial hardships of not being able to work kicked in I had to let the housekeeper go. So I am, even though my physical body is revolting against me, pushing to complete a room in my house every three days. I am realistic enough to know better than to try and push myself to complete a room a day or even two days.
I am really hoping that I can stick with this until it is finished, so I must push because I know that it would be so easy for me to just give up the project. It is very exhausting for me to take on such a task because I do not clean like most people. I actually clean from the ceiling to the floor.
Yesterday I started in the master. I believe this project may end up involving some money because as I cleaned and looked around I decided to purge some things including the drapes! So I am on the hunt for a deal on drapes that I like so I can replace what was there... I took them down, washed them and put them in the donate box. Only a blind remains in the space that a drape once was. Knowing this will drive me crazy is motivation enough to find a replacement fast and install it.
I believe with everything coming at me in so many aspects of my life coupled with winter blues I need to push push push myself to motivate on something, anything or I know where this will go.... I will crawl into the bed and stay there for a very long time. (months)
What I really need now is a professional organizer to help me! We shall see how this all unfolds.
My home life has suffered greatly in my times of "shut down" mode. After the meltdown that I had almost two weeks ago and the subsequent period of non-rest in mind body and soul I have had to dig deep to find a way to bring myself out of this and start attacking things that have been neglected. I know for a fact that my house has not been properly cleaned since July when because of the financial hardships of not being able to work kicked in I had to let the housekeeper go. So I am, even though my physical body is revolting against me, pushing to complete a room in my house every three days. I am realistic enough to know better than to try and push myself to complete a room a day or even two days.
I am really hoping that I can stick with this until it is finished, so I must push because I know that it would be so easy for me to just give up the project. It is very exhausting for me to take on such a task because I do not clean like most people. I actually clean from the ceiling to the floor.
Yesterday I started in the master. I believe this project may end up involving some money because as I cleaned and looked around I decided to purge some things including the drapes! So I am on the hunt for a deal on drapes that I like so I can replace what was there... I took them down, washed them and put them in the donate box. Only a blind remains in the space that a drape once was. Knowing this will drive me crazy is motivation enough to find a replacement fast and install it.
I believe with everything coming at me in so many aspects of my life coupled with winter blues I need to push push push myself to motivate on something, anything or I know where this will go.... I will crawl into the bed and stay there for a very long time. (months)
What I really need now is a professional organizer to help me! We shall see how this all unfolds.
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JadedGhost13
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My head hurts....
I knew I was being completely realistic when I chose to allow myself three days per room to deep clean. My ADD and brain fog are in full force today, especially the ADD! I must have jumped tasks at least a dozen times and then forget, only to look over and see that I did not finish something. And having my TV on did not help either, it made me HUNGRY! I keep a television on at all times because if it is silent here and then all of a sudden there is a noise of any kind I startle really bad and the rest of my day is spent trying to settle my mind and body from the startle and it could be something as simple as the wind kicking up and making a decoration on my porch sway and bump the house.
My husband asked me at least three times in the past week if I had started working on our taxes yet, so today I decide to import my quickbooks into the tax software and enter what we had so far in forms from interest and dividends etc so when the W-2's come in it is a simple entry and its done. Now I have this smashing headache. I am really in a fog today so seriously I am totally thankful for programs that do the work for me. There is no way I could sit down right now with all our receipts and find my way out of those!
When I was cleaning my room earlier I found some lottery tickets I had forgotten to check. I could be a millionaire and not know it! HAHA... we all know the odds of that happening are nill! But hey... I do like to buy a dream for a buck or two, its fun to waste time thinking about what you would do if you won a jackpot. As for me... I would move to Central America and live very simple, fishing for lobster, shrimp and fish, and growing what veggies I could. We have spent a good amount of time in Central America and it is a place that we are both drawn to for the tropical climate, and the simplicity of the life there. Of all the places that we have been I have always been able to relax in Central America which is something I just cannot find anywhere else.
I knew I was being completely realistic when I chose to allow myself three days per room to deep clean. My ADD and brain fog are in full force today, especially the ADD! I must have jumped tasks at least a dozen times and then forget, only to look over and see that I did not finish something. And having my TV on did not help either, it made me HUNGRY! I keep a television on at all times because if it is silent here and then all of a sudden there is a noise of any kind I startle really bad and the rest of my day is spent trying to settle my mind and body from the startle and it could be something as simple as the wind kicking up and making a decoration on my porch sway and bump the house.
My husband asked me at least three times in the past week if I had started working on our taxes yet, so today I decide to import my quickbooks into the tax software and enter what we had so far in forms from interest and dividends etc so when the W-2's come in it is a simple entry and its done. Now I have this smashing headache. I am really in a fog today so seriously I am totally thankful for programs that do the work for me. There is no way I could sit down right now with all our receipts and find my way out of those!
When I was cleaning my room earlier I found some lottery tickets I had forgotten to check. I could be a millionaire and not know it! HAHA... we all know the odds of that happening are nill! But hey... I do like to buy a dream for a buck or two, its fun to waste time thinking about what you would do if you won a jackpot. As for me... I would move to Central America and live very simple, fishing for lobster, shrimp and fish, and growing what veggies I could. We have spent a good amount of time in Central America and it is a place that we are both drawn to for the tropical climate, and the simplicity of the life there. Of all the places that we have been I have always been able to relax in Central America which is something I just cannot find anywhere else.
torturedsoul7402
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If I won the jackpot, I would love to live somewhere so far from anyone, that I would need supplies flown in. Maybe somewhere in the mountains. First though, I would buy all the lobsters, and drive them back to the ocean to be free once again. Also, give large donations to the animal rights organisations.
I, too would have a large vegetable garden(and share freely with all my new woodland friends). No fishing for me though, as I am a strict vegetarian(for ethical reasons)!
I, too would have a large vegetable garden(and share freely with all my new woodland friends). No fishing for me though, as I am a strict vegetarian(for ethical reasons)!
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I totally respect you for being a vegetarian, I just cannot made that change. While I am not a big fan of pork, chicken or beef I do consume small amounts of it. Too much of it and I do not feel well at all. But fish (fresh water) and seafood I cannot break away from at all. But I cannot eat any of it fried. I have to have things grilled or sauted.
Last weekend I planted 216 seeds and some are starting to grow. We've been looking at the set ups all week for new sprouts. I have the teens just as excited about the plants as I am. They keep asking me where were going to plants them all and talking about how they cannot wait to cook them up. We grill a lot of veggies here.
Last weekend I planted 216 seeds and some are starting to grow. We've been looking at the set ups all week for new sprouts. I have the teens just as excited about the plants as I am. They keep asking me where were going to plants them all and talking about how they cannot wait to cook them up. We grill a lot of veggies here.
torturedsoul7402
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I eat NO meat, nor do I drink milk, or eat eggs. I've not been able to break away from things such as cheese, butter & miracle whip. If I had enough money to afford the vegan options of those things, I would have no trouble being 100% vegan. Same with Yolanda. We feel guilty about consuming ANY animal products, but we don't have much money, and some vegan foods can be pricey.
That's cute how you have the teens excited about the seedlings. Edgar(our bunny) would be tearing them sprouts up!! He loves eating EVERYTHING, and sprouts are a tasty treat to him. He's so cute, and he absolutely adores snuggles. The other day, I had him in my lap; with my arms encircling his entire body, and my cheek resting on his head. We both fell asleep like that!! It was awesome!! And we've only had him two months!! I can only imagine how he'll be as he adjusts to the family further, and learns to trust us more.
That's cute how you have the teens excited about the seedlings. Edgar(our bunny) would be tearing them sprouts up!! He loves eating EVERYTHING, and sprouts are a tasty treat to him. He's so cute, and he absolutely adores snuggles. The other day, I had him in my lap; with my arms encircling his entire body, and my cheek resting on his head. We both fell asleep like that!! It was awesome!! And we've only had him two months!! I can only imagine how he'll be as he adjusts to the family further, and learns to trust us more.
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I am suffering from a massive headache today and I can not identify if it related to the nasty wet cold weather we are having or if its my anxiety over going to the therapist today and make a decision if I should keep going there or not after the doctors inappropriate words last week. Either way I am really not having a good day and honestly when I get back from my appointment I would love to get in bed and stay there for the rest of the week, however I know I cannot do that as I have to make dinner tonight. I wish I would not have agreed to cook, but yesterday I did not know that I would be feeling like this today.
@torturedsoul7402 You make me want another pet! LOL. I was just on the phone with a friend and I told him I wanted a new puppy, he suggested a great dane, there is NO way I could afford to feed that big of a fur baby! Please tell me more about your bunny.... I have never known someone personally that has had one as a pet, but I have seen them before. They must not be a popular pet here in the south. Here I see people with dogs and cats and the occasional bird and that's about it. We did fish for a few years and I really enjoyed that except the cleaning of the water part.
@torturedsoul7402 You make me want another pet! LOL. I was just on the phone with a friend and I told him I wanted a new puppy, he suggested a great dane, there is NO way I could afford to feed that big of a fur baby! Please tell me more about your bunny.... I have never known someone personally that has had one as a pet, but I have seen them before. They must not be a popular pet here in the south. Here I see people with dogs and cats and the occasional bird and that's about it. We did fish for a few years and I really enjoyed that except the cleaning of the water part.
torturedsoul7402
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I'm sorry you're feeling so miserable today. Is there more than one doctor at the clinic you attend? If so, you have the right to request a different one, and be able to stay at the same location.
As for Edgar I am chock full of stories, and am always ready and willing to share. We have five birds also!
Before stories though, I just wanted to let you know, it is a common misconception that rabbits are easy to care for, and make good "starter pets" for kids. They're not easy to care for. Their digestive systems are extremely sensitive, you have to be very careful with their diets.
Rabbits are exceptionally intelligent animals. When Edgar wants our teas after he's already had his, he'll pull on the mug with his paws to purposely spill it. Then he licks up the spilt tea, whether it's on the couch, us, or his own furry, little body!!
He's also an escape artist! He very quickly, and easily figured out(as soon as he came home); what both cage doors were for, and how they work. For the front one; he does this little spin kick in the air and kicks it open with his back feet.
The top door, he knows how it works, he's just too little to reach it. That doesn't stop him from trying though! The little dork does these spinning jumps straight up in the air at it. It's so cute, and funny to watch, but we're afraid he's gonna hurt himself with that move.
As for Edgar I am chock full of stories, and am always ready and willing to share. We have five birds also!
Before stories though, I just wanted to let you know, it is a common misconception that rabbits are easy to care for, and make good "starter pets" for kids. They're not easy to care for. Their digestive systems are extremely sensitive, you have to be very careful with their diets.
Rabbits are exceptionally intelligent animals. When Edgar wants our teas after he's already had his, he'll pull on the mug with his paws to purposely spill it. Then he licks up the spilt tea, whether it's on the couch, us, or his own furry, little body!!
He's also an escape artist! He very quickly, and easily figured out(as soon as he came home); what both cage doors were for, and how they work. For the front one; he does this little spin kick in the air and kicks it open with his back feet.
The top door, he knows how it works, he's just too little to reach it. That doesn't stop him from trying though! The little dork does these spinning jumps straight up in the air at it. It's so cute, and funny to watch, but we're afraid he's gonna hurt himself with that move.
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Most unfortunate there is only one doctor in the clinic that I go to. I am in a very rual area and resources are far and few here, especially in this area. But you better believe there are more than enough churches and cigarette stores to go around. Our county developer apparently gets paid to do nothing as industry has left the area and there has been no effort to replace the jobs that left town or folded altogether. Because of this the people that are still here are forced to drive many miles each way to and from work each day in order to maintain employment and eventually most of the folks who do that end up moving closer to the job they have taken in other counties and towns. This especially makes things harder for those of us who can afford to stay but need services that have left town with the groves of folks and jobs that have left as well. In my situation the next place to go to would be over an hour travel each way and being I already have problems leaving home this makes things even more difficult. The place I go to is in the next town over and only 10 minutes from my house if that making it easier for me than any other option. I know of no one in my area with PTSD except for military vets, and those few vets in my area who do have PTSD get their care at the VA two hours away. So... that more or less leaves me to be resourceful with what I have to work with and it is a constant battle to get anywhere with getting help.
Apparently yesterday I was in a HUGE brain fog. I was a day early for my appointment so I get to leave the house again today... yay me.... NOT! I have never messed up an appointment like that before, oh well, me showing up there on the wrong day may make them see I am one messed up person! LOL. But I was so frustrated with myself for having shown up on the wrong day as I have never done that with an appointment before. I do not know how I go the wrong date in my calendar but I did and my appointment card from that office is correct with todays date and time.
I was so frustrated.... I came home and really just wanted to go to bed and bury my head in the sand like a ostrich but NO.... It was Monday night which meant that I had a house full of kids. For some reason every Monday night my house is a hub and I cook dinner for them, they cook the desert. I was already obligated to the dinner but suffice to say as soon as dinner was over I slipped into my cocoon in my room thinking I was about to get some long deep sleep. That did not happen either, as for some odd reason the power went out. We had storms yesterday, but they were all moved out of the area by the time the power decided to fail. When that happened I could hear every little noise and I was on high alert. Eventually somewhere around 2AM I was able to rest as the power was restored. Today I woke up feeling like I had been stomped in the head.
Then on top of all of that, something jammed in the internet router and I had to call in to my provider and have them send a new signal after I had gone through power cycles. Such a pain in the rear end. I hope that some day we will actually have wireless high speed internet here in the sticks.
@torturedsoul7402 Edgar sounds like a really smart guy! I had no idea they were that intelligent. I would love to learn more about him. What kinds of birds do you have? Years ago on my first trip to South America I was able to handle a macaw and I instantly fell in love. Now each time I go South I make it a point to visit somewhere where I can get my hands on a macaw. We plan to have one someday, however there is a lot of prep work to be done to properly bring one to our home. It is not just a pet you get on a whim. We have to build an outdoor enclosure so the bird can sun in the warmer months as well as have a enclosure set up inside our home with foraging toys and the typical bird toys. We are in contact with a seller who hand raises their macaws he refuses to sell to anyone until they have passed all his requirements so he knows his babies will be properly cared for. I would love to have a blue and gold but I will take any of them that seem to take up with us. I think the responsibility will help me with getting myself together each day and the company may drive me nuts because I am a very quiet reclusive person but I really think I will get used to it over time and in the end it could be therapeutic for me. It was that way with my little dog when he was alive.
I have to get myself up and around now so I can stop by the store and get a huge dose of caffeine to try and combat this headache then go to the dreaded office visit I apparently was a day early for. I have a lot on my mind and plan to get it out tonight so look forward to some of that! Later.... Jade
Apparently yesterday I was in a HUGE brain fog. I was a day early for my appointment so I get to leave the house again today... yay me.... NOT! I have never messed up an appointment like that before, oh well, me showing up there on the wrong day may make them see I am one messed up person! LOL. But I was so frustrated with myself for having shown up on the wrong day as I have never done that with an appointment before. I do not know how I go the wrong date in my calendar but I did and my appointment card from that office is correct with todays date and time.
I was so frustrated.... I came home and really just wanted to go to bed and bury my head in the sand like a ostrich but NO.... It was Monday night which meant that I had a house full of kids. For some reason every Monday night my house is a hub and I cook dinner for them, they cook the desert. I was already obligated to the dinner but suffice to say as soon as dinner was over I slipped into my cocoon in my room thinking I was about to get some long deep sleep. That did not happen either, as for some odd reason the power went out. We had storms yesterday, but they were all moved out of the area by the time the power decided to fail. When that happened I could hear every little noise and I was on high alert. Eventually somewhere around 2AM I was able to rest as the power was restored. Today I woke up feeling like I had been stomped in the head.
Then on top of all of that, something jammed in the internet router and I had to call in to my provider and have them send a new signal after I had gone through power cycles. Such a pain in the rear end. I hope that some day we will actually have wireless high speed internet here in the sticks.
@torturedsoul7402 Edgar sounds like a really smart guy! I had no idea they were that intelligent. I would love to learn more about him. What kinds of birds do you have? Years ago on my first trip to South America I was able to handle a macaw and I instantly fell in love. Now each time I go South I make it a point to visit somewhere where I can get my hands on a macaw. We plan to have one someday, however there is a lot of prep work to be done to properly bring one to our home. It is not just a pet you get on a whim. We have to build an outdoor enclosure so the bird can sun in the warmer months as well as have a enclosure set up inside our home with foraging toys and the typical bird toys. We are in contact with a seller who hand raises their macaws he refuses to sell to anyone until they have passed all his requirements so he knows his babies will be properly cared for. I would love to have a blue and gold but I will take any of them that seem to take up with us. I think the responsibility will help me with getting myself together each day and the company may drive me nuts because I am a very quiet reclusive person but I really think I will get used to it over time and in the end it could be therapeutic for me. It was that way with my little dog when he was alive.
I have to get myself up and around now so I can stop by the store and get a huge dose of caffeine to try and combat this headache then go to the dreaded office visit I apparently was a day early for. I have a lot on my mind and plan to get it out tonight so look forward to some of that! Later.... Jade
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