I know what it's like to be aware & how scary that can be but w/ the help of others & time & education, proper food, supplements, etc., the scary parts become less & less & the healing parts become more & more a part of us. I think people are not diagnosed w/ PTSD for a long time but when they are, it's very helpful, b/c then professionals will not treat each symptom alone but group them under PTSD & be understanding. Besides counseling, EMDR helped me & made a difference.
I sent some the following info. to someone else but I think it will help you as well. There is so much need in your life for human underanding & compassion & love & healing. Try to take one day at a time. There is a supplement that is key in helping your health & it is ADRENAL CORTEX...I take 500 mg. w/ a meal in the AM or a middle of the day meal & 500 mg. w/ my supper meal. This seems right for me & what I found online for dosage, you of course, can decide what to do after your research. I also take the MULTI-GLAND supplement & the LICORICE capsules ...all of these support the adrenals, but without the ADRENAL CORTEX, I'm sunk & I think it is the key even if someone is taking other supplements at the time. The PITUITARY along w/ the ADRENAL CORTEX gives it more power as well.
You can find all of these supplements on vitacost at great discounts when & if someone can help you! I also take natural supplements for my brain/memory but I can tell you that none of the other supplements take the place or do the job of the ADRENAL CORTEX. It's just like if someone has a thyroid problem & they are taking good supplements but there's no real change in the thyroid, then taking ARMOUR THYROID is a good choice. Jasmin Cori's book "Healing from Trauma" has really blessed me & especially, Michele Rosenthal & Dr. Ochberg is also also helpful & any videos from these people on youtube.
Oh, btw, just in case you're eating any wheat products ...they are the worse thing to eat! They have 50% more gluten than many years ago & gluten causes health problems. You might enjoy Mike Adams in your email to keep you up-to-date on health matters or Dr. Mercola. Consider gluten-free pasta & bread (UDI's is a good brand for the bread)
Hope this helps.