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I can't believe the hysteria because it's hot. It's summer? We had no AC when I was a kid. It was hotter than hell. There was no AC in the cars. We had big thunderstorms. I remember the asphalt would melt. We carved our names in it.

It was a dirt road really. A truck drove down and sprayed some kind of oil on it and then a truck came down and spread sand on it. 1/2 mile further down the asphalt stopped and it was a dirt road.

All the hysteria is pathetic. It's like there aren't any grown ups anymore.

I know we suffered from the heat. I don't remember suffering though. We had a fan in the bedroom at night. We got a nickel for the ice cream truck. We went swimming, we rode our bikes. We were outside all the time. Everyone had skinned knees and elbows, we were always comparing injuries and wounds.

We were poor but we didn't know. It didn't seem like it. Life seemed full.
 
You live in such a special place. I like the beach... to look at but not to swim in.. so it'd be a waste on me.

How hot is it really?

I grew up without any mod cons and yeah didn't know we were poor either.

Not the same now though is it? I mean I don't know what being rich is either.. but I know I'm not. lol..
 
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It was in the mid 90's. You couldn't sit on the beach long. The water was cool not cold so it wouldn't drop the body temperature for long. That's because there was no wind.

Usually, in the hottest weather, the wind blows offshore blowing the heated surface water away from shore and causing an upwelling of cold water. That's what the townies call it. On those days the beach is crowded but nobody's in the water.

So everyone was in the water.
 
We went to the beach and had cheeseburgers on the grill. The beach sort of comes on you with the weather. You forget about it over the winter, it seems like it was someone else. This is our eighth year I think. We were always unhappy in the other house because we never felt secure there. My wife went out with a friend today. Day off.

Now we have to do whatever we are still trying to settle in here. Most of the people on that go to the beach on the street are pros lol. Everyone has beach wagons that you hook the chairs on and baskets that you shove all the towels and umbrellas and all the other stuff in so you can walk down there with whoever. We had all that stuff especially the first few years at the other house, the kids were in school still mostly. Everyone gets company in the summer, no one gets much company off season.

Everyone in town becomes really popular when it's time for the beach.

Today the breeze picked up and the water was like icecubes. That's how it usually is when it's hot. You can barely get in the water but it's so hot on the beach you have to.
 
I can't believe the hysteria because it's hot. It's summer?

I totally agree! I don't get all the hysteria. True, it's hot. It's maybe even hotter than usual. So? Go with the flow, adjust. Take it slower. Change or postpone tasks. I get that it's hard on sick and older people, maybe small children. So...stay inside. Or go somewhere where it's cool. Go to the pool.

It's the same when people complain how it's cold in winter. Don't get it. But I do think with all the advances and A/C EVERY where, people's bodies have forgotten how to adapt to the different seasons.

I sometimes feel like 20, 30 years ago, people didn't dissect and overthink everything and just dealt with things they just couldn't change (such as the weather) more. They probably were happier at least to some extend.
 
Today was supposed to be the "dangerously" hot day. I cut the grass. I didn't break a sweat. It was hot so i wore my bathing suit and a light shirt unbuttoned because I usually keep a shirt on. About halfway through I stopped and sprayed myself with the hose. Then I finished mowing and went in and took a shower. Because I went a little slower (and I didn't weed whack,) it was even easier than usual. We were outside quite a bit. Nice day, cooler tomorrow.
 
Rain and it's a relief to be back to reality. It's not beach weather about 95% of the time. It's probably not even go outside weather about 75% (not real sure.).

They are putting a roof on the apartments across the street. There is always too much activity for me. They just put a roof on the house on the other side about two weeks back. It all gives me anxiety. Hearing people moving around outside makes me anxious. It was not raining this morning. We had meetings with the state regarding guardianship for our daughters. We got heavy downpours on the way home. The roofers are working still, they have the exposed sections covered with tarps.

But we don't have to worry about beach walking or swimming today except maybe if the rain clears up we will have to see if we can get a walk in. We ate lunch out so it'd be good to walk it off.
 
It's raining again. I haven't looked at what the weather is. I have the therapist today and I don't want to go. I don't want to drive in there it's summer lol. It takes all day and I have SO many other things to do that are not getting enough of my time.

I don't want to feel like that about therapy, stuck about that too. IDK what she's trying to do if anything and I don't have a goal? I'm worse I think. If more scared and sensitive and horny is worse lol.

There are girls everywhere in various states of undress and some in quite a state meaning mostly naked. It's the beach after all. You have to put up with everyone in bathing suits and undressed mostly even in the convenience stores which all put up signs saying you have to have shoes on.

Life goes on though. It's just really hard getting out of here in summer.
 
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This is what it usually looks like. It's warm though and now it's stopped raining so we may try walking. We will see how the weather looks in aottle while.
 
which all put up signs saying you have to have shoes on.

^But isn't that so funny? Virtually nothing on but must wear shoes lol....

Even if it is raining, windy and cold...walking on a deserted beach would be my kind of beach day.

Construction noises are just annoying no matter what!

Maybe the goal of one session with the therapist might be to talk about finding goals that you have yet to discover?

Edited... love the photos... :hug:
 
Yesterday was particularly beautiful. The beach looks flat and uninteresting. It's anything else but it's a beautiful tapestry or canvas. It's alive. There is a big sandbar carved at our street so you have to thread your way through Ricky patches. Yesterday the tide unloaded tons of seaweed everywhere and young clams in great patches thet crunch underfoot the consistency of eggshells.

I'm so busy and getting nothing done and I'm getting fat (for me.). The positive things I've added to the schedule (walking, cooking outside and graphic arts class,) are causing other things not to get done. Clean the house today, please. : )

I don't push too hard. I try to stop and rest. Then there's the anxiety about sex. It's sex always all the time. This takes up so much time. I'm doing all the things I'm doing but I'm always going back to sex. It's like putting a candy in my mouth, thinking about it.

It's harder in summer because everyone is out sniffing around for sex. Bathing suits and summer clothes and the girls walking around looking pretty and laughing and tossing their hair. Chlorine and sun block. I smile a lot.

A girl walked by right next to me all alone in a bikini close enough that I caught the pretty smell of her. I want to give her something so, I put the biggest smile on my face because leering at her, though it's one of the sensations she gives me and I think it perfectly natural, is probably not the most attractive so I think about her as this beautiful gift God made and put in front of me, and I smile.

She knows. Girls are another part of the beautiful beach.

I still don't have the distance we are walking exactly, it's about an hour and a half. Every time I get in the car and go somewhere I could figure it out. It's on the list.
 
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