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freespirit13
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Hello,
Thank you for your replies, I have been working through my trauma without, but sometimes when it gets to much, I've worked myself into a frenzy and for some reason i can't control the anxiety/panic, just takes control of me, heaving as soon as i wake up etc etc.
I can sit in doors and not even be bothered by not going out for weeks on end, i just don't seem to have the energy and can't get myself motivated, which then makes me feel worse because i should be exposing myself as it was and everything that i have learn't has gone out the window.
I think i have to do the exposure therapy more, so i feel comfortable in my own skin and my surroundings, I don't even trust my family to keep me safe , i am on high alert still with everything and even though i have been seeing my therapist coming up for a year now, i have noticed changes in my behavior and other people have, which gives me comfort that i am on the right road.
I think i am going to test myself, as i only ever take paracetamol ( it has to be from a specific shop and i have to buy it) - no other pain killers , so i might try it that way, take a different brand, when i have a headache or even some one gives me the pain killer (instead of throwing them in the bin and getting new ones) Maybe one way of letting my guard down.
And possibly experimenting accepting food and drink at some ones house or a coffee shop
I have a big issue with this, to the extent that i am putting off a blood test, in case they find something wrong and i have to take medication.
I never understood what was going on with me for years, until last year, when they eventually diagnosed me (after just being fobbed off with that it's just anxiety and panic attacks and seeing a million specialists that didn't help ) Which did annoy me, as if they had recognized it earlier, then perhaps my learn't and safety behavior wouldn't be as bad , getting the help now and just got to build on it, i'm not going to pressure myself , one of my many habits, as i know i will run from it.
Just got to test, test , test and more testing , Sometimes i just want to laugh at myself , if i don't laugh , god only knows where i would be :) xxxxxx Thank you i am grateful for your responses xxxxx
Thank you for your replies, I have been working through my trauma without, but sometimes when it gets to much, I've worked myself into a frenzy and for some reason i can't control the anxiety/panic, just takes control of me, heaving as soon as i wake up etc etc.
I can sit in doors and not even be bothered by not going out for weeks on end, i just don't seem to have the energy and can't get myself motivated, which then makes me feel worse because i should be exposing myself as it was and everything that i have learn't has gone out the window.
I think i have to do the exposure therapy more, so i feel comfortable in my own skin and my surroundings, I don't even trust my family to keep me safe , i am on high alert still with everything and even though i have been seeing my therapist coming up for a year now, i have noticed changes in my behavior and other people have, which gives me comfort that i am on the right road.
I think i am going to test myself, as i only ever take paracetamol ( it has to be from a specific shop and i have to buy it) - no other pain killers , so i might try it that way, take a different brand, when i have a headache or even some one gives me the pain killer (instead of throwing them in the bin and getting new ones) Maybe one way of letting my guard down.
And possibly experimenting accepting food and drink at some ones house or a coffee shop
I have a big issue with this, to the extent that i am putting off a blood test, in case they find something wrong and i have to take medication.
I never understood what was going on with me for years, until last year, when they eventually diagnosed me (after just being fobbed off with that it's just anxiety and panic attacks and seeing a million specialists that didn't help ) Which did annoy me, as if they had recognized it earlier, then perhaps my learn't and safety behavior wouldn't be as bad , getting the help now and just got to build on it, i'm not going to pressure myself , one of my many habits, as i know i will run from it.
Just got to test, test , test and more testing , Sometimes i just want to laugh at myself , if i don't laugh , god only knows where i would be :) xxxxxx Thank you i am grateful for your responses xxxxx
