General Taking Care Of Me

[cherryblossom]

Hey Amethist. Remember that rule number one is to look after yourself!! Sorry to hear you are having a rough time.
I will be around a bit more this week, as I'm doing a little better, so if you want to natter, just give me a shout.

In the mean time

 

[Toria]

So sorry to hear that you're struggling too Amethyst. A big hug from me too x

 

[anni]

It's do-able, too, eventually. I had to do it out of necessity, turning art into a living. The boys were small and I needed to be there when they got home from school. Yes, the whole hobby thing got torqued into things which really did bring in a living and it's been so much better doing things one likes to do rather than what others tell you to do! :) All the best with this, it sounds like you're really intrigued with the idea.

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear Amethist, this is out of the blue, not even sure why I am posting this (?), but it occurred to me today (re: your gall bladder surgery before, and your husband having difficulty supporting you, etc)- perhaps the thought that something could go wrong (and the fallout from that) was too much for him to handle or bear?

Hope you are feeling much better now.-

 

[amethist]

Hi Junebug, and thank you. I am all recovered and not lasting issues with this.

It was seeing me in pain and not my usual get up and do what ever self that got to him. Much as I was actually OK, but I did do I was told and take it very easy for the first few days. Then just got up and did bits for the next few days, until I felt fine to do what ever again.

He struggled big time, maybe because of fear of what could have been, wasmixed in there too, though it was never mentioned, probably better that way. he always struggles when I am ill, luckily not too often.

Because of how this effected him, he is now saying he does not want to move to the coast. As it would be too for from family who could help, if it were ever needed. No problem we can compromise, side of a river or canal, will do just as good, around where we are now.

Amethist

 

[amethist]

This morning I have the first of my own therapy sessions. I am not sure if the lady knows anything about PTSD and the impact it can have on supporters.

If she doesn't, then I will print some articles form here and give then to her I will also suggest she read the relationship book too.

 

[amethist]

Well that was so interesting this morning.

It was going well she understood how stressful being a supporter for PTSD can be and could see I understood all that should be done to keep my own sanity.

Then the crunch came at the end.

She informed me that it is more emotional support I need, (is it really, well now there's a surprise). :rolleyes: Unfortunately there are very few, if any, free support Councillor's out there, for people such as me. To leave it all with her and she will see what she can find out and call me at the end of next week.

So I can pay, but as she also said whether they will understand how life is for a PTSD supporter, she has no idea.

Oh well at least I got chance to vent to someone face to face, who did seem to understand, even if it was only a one off appointment.

:mad: :alien: :confused: :x3:

None of the above, but give me a bit more time and I just might get there.

 

[Tinyflame]

Amethist, try to think positive, and I think your husband will too.

I'm sorry it's such an awful thing to deal with. :(- you are such a sweet person the way you are.
xox

 

[Toria]

Well I will keep everything crossed for you and hope that she can come up with someone for you x

 

[anni]

Amethist, I hope this isn't a question which is silly- if you don't have anything to do with your local parish then of course it is! Anyway. I remember my ex-mother in law used to get counseling on a regular basis with the vicar there, that's all. She had a truly invalided husband at the time, not PTSD related just ill and also an awfully tempermental person naturally- THAT was genetic.... .He passed it on to the tempermental son I married. I only remember something from that long ago because I remember thinking how similar it was to what my Dad did in this country.

I do hope there's something somewhere for you, anyway, since the first session was good for you. You deserve your own whacking dose of that dust you hand around to others so freely. :) Here's hoping!!

 

[amethist]

Hi Annie

Thank you Annie, for putting back on the right path.

Whilst I do believe in a higher power, the church is not for me. The church its self is too critical in its ways, telling too many untruths for its own convenience, trying to convince us that their way is the only way. Which ever religion I look at they all go down the same path of some how making us feel guilty for our own wrongs, when they have so many of their own to sort out before doing this to us.

Sorry I personally dont buy into any of that. The path I try to follow, does not try and shove it down your throat, and does not pass the book when things go wrong, and goes way further back than some of them. I don't preach and try and convert others, we all have free will to choose our own, I chose mine because this made more sense than anything any one else could offer. Enough said LOL.

It is now time I took a step back and do a lot more of what does help me. My own kind of majic dust is out there all the time, the river the canal, all within 15 minutes of walking distance.

The power of nature and what it has to offer me is more powerful than anything else right now, plus the knowledge that I do have everything I need inside of me.

Guna have to read "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho again.

I will have to find my own majic in me again. It is there, just need to let it out again. :tup:

 

[anni]

Yes, I do agree with what goes on in the churches, too much converting and judgement, too much THIS is the way- no apologies needed. They sometimes are well connected with the services-didn't know if it's the same there, if you needed any further help mining any of that gold dust.

I do an imitation of running every morning I can- connect with the not silent trees and tap the cold creek of whatever it wishes to tell me that day. There's always something. I'd give a lot to see some Celtic dust around here though- will think of you having collected some over there where it's 1000's of years deep.