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Thanks for writing, I've been in and out of therapy for 4 years since my assault from my abusive and break down (I was litterally too scared to leave the house for weeks) Since then I've seen 2 mental health nurses, and 8 therapists, I've tried talking therapises on the NHS and EDMR privately. I'm very aware of my mental health but I am overwhelmed and not getting better, since my rape as a teen I've seen more therapists earlier, before the abusive relationship. I break down monthly, I have lots of amazing friend but no primary care giver really as my mother and I aren't talking since she refused to help me find a therapist when I got sicked out of one therapists for being suicidal and they outed me as seeing them to my Drs putting my long term therapy at the tavistock at risk as I'd been seeing a private therapist. As my mother is no longer taking my mental health seriously I don't really have a primary care giver. My romantic relationships don't work, it seems like they are either scared off by my mental health (despite me taking care of myself) or were just messing me around, playing the white knight until it got too real. So I do what I can, and I am exausted and I need this to work. Thank you for your kind words. I do have lovely friends and one of my closest has BPD so really gets it, so that's as close as I get for an outside support. I really appreicate what you say about us being able to know when its our sympoms flairing up and others misreading things are part of us.