Terrified Of Everything...overnight

[Ronin]

Okay and thanks for clarifying @TyraaryT - can you try smaller bits then, smaller & regular, get back up? Making yourself to, even if it's difficult and you have no appetite and anxiety is in the way.

Soothing routines before eating, praising yourself for eating any amount, soothing routines after eating, no reprimands if you can't manage for the day kind of a thing.

With the psychiatrist, you're doing okay, you'll get there. People reschedule appointments all of the time, it isn't a big mess up or 'failure', it simply happened, you will get there. :)

 

[Deleted member 27340]

I don't want to gain weight. But I try to slow down the weightloss, though.

 

[Silver.]

agoraphobia doesn't have a time limit of when it happens. I developed it earlier in this year from weaning off a medication.
I didn't seek treatment for it because I knew that I would get out of it eventually, but after giving into it for weeks, I finally started to force myself to function, for the sake of my family.
I started with trips to the mailbox. Then I practiced driving my car to the end of the driveway, then driving to the store down the road. But it had to be done in baby steps or I never would have made any progress.
It seems impossible, but if you don't try and push yourself you will end up just as she cat has said, and that's no way to live life.
Take Care x

 

[Deleted member 541]

@TyraaryT Just having PTSD puts you at risk of getting agoraphobia. I'm assuming you also have an eating disorder, which if you do, then the chemical imbalance within your body and brain from lack of nutrients will just compound everything.

I've been there. Anoxia, bulimia, agoraphobia, PTSD, alcohol and smoking pot all at the same time. Really f*cks with the mind and body.

I would suggest that exposure therapy, CBT therapy, and starting to eat healthier is what you really should do. And keep pushing yourself and talking yourself down from the anxiety. The anxiety is awful, but it won't kill you. Just makes you feel like shit...

 

[Deleted member 27340]

@Silver I don't think I have more strength left to try and push myself out more... The short trips right outside my house are enough :(

@She Cat I don't have an eating disorder. Food is just urgh when everything else is crap, also I'm too heavy/fat, my body isn't suffering under weightloss, it's better for it that I lose weight.

I need to tell my T about this first, but I've got no idea how to tell her about this, or how to not freak the f*ck out just from going to see her...

 

[Ronin]

my body isn't suffering under weightloss

Objection here, Tyra. Not getting enough nutrition can lead to your organs collapsing. It isn't about 'the fat'. It's wrong reasoning to focus on appearance only, and not think of functioning, and not think of possible permanent problems if functioning isn't addressed right away.

Can you copy and print what you've told us, heighlighting the bits you want to talk to her about?

 

[Deleted member 541]

17kilos in 3 months is a lot of weight to lose without having an eating disorder. Although I understand that depression can cause weight loss too. I lose weight when depressed/stressed. Gain weight when anxious. Just more gifts that PTSD gives us.

While you make it on your way to your T's office, just keep talking yourself down from the panic and anxiety. You won't die, I promise. If you have to take a bus or taxi, bring a book to read or iPod for music, just something to distract you.

You can do this, and every time you venture out, by forcing yourself, it will get easier.

 

[Abstract]

Can you tell us what your BMI is? Its absolutely possible to loose weight without disordered eating as such but what concerns me is your aversion to the idea of gaining and eating and your lack of acceptance that loosing that much that quickly can disrupt your system from a chemical perspective. Regardless of your present weight loosing that much can be an eniormous strain on your body. I'm concerned you say you fluctuate this much regularly.

I won't comment on the rest as others have given you great input. I also have trouble coming back to threads by the way.

Can you write your t an email or letter?

 

[aut555]

Just imagine your t has heard it all . The only way to get better is to talk about this with her. That is the door to moving on and healing. Can you take some of your favorite blanket , a cut off piece in your purse with you? And maybe go stand outside for a few minutes even without cigs. Then you will understand nothing is happening to you because you need to get to medical appointments. Can you get temp meds to help with anxiety until you feel more grounded? This may take a couple of months then you can get off them.

 

[Anarchy]

You said that there is stuff from the past coming into your mind
Do you have anyone to help you with that?
Some emdr perhaps? You don't have to share what's coming up with the person who you are doing the emdr with.

Hope you get some relief soon.

Ps, have you heard of Susan Jeffers? She deals with facing down fears, and living with them.

 

[Gs172003]

Something I just read today that may interest you and is about the eating too.

Diet Plays Important Role for Mental Health | Psych Central News

 

[Bye]

Ok, first off, I'm really bad at replying back whenever I make threads here (so I don't make threads o...

I've had simalier episodes, start out and than end up crying and shaking ,,, it hard being scared,,